Through rosy sunglasses on skyhigh heels

Hi~

2011-07-19T13:30:00.000+02:00

Hi guys! I know I've been completely neglecting my blog. Real life is happening and its happening fast!
I'm doing a quick update from my phone now. I really want to post more. It just seems everyone else have something interesting to say. And I really don't.
Next time I'll post pictures of the nails I've done recently. I also have an order to make some for 2 girls, but since I just moved the nailstuff hasn't really been unpacked yet. Looking forward to getting started though ^^/

I went an saw the last Harry potter movie. Such an end to an era. I can't believe there's no more waiting for the next film. Now I'm waiting for the release of a box with all 8 films on blu-ray. Wouldn't that be neat! I'm sure amazon will have some awesome offer!
I'm reading the books once more :D

Nails + bento-meetup

2011-06-19T17:39:00.000+02:00

I made these cute loli whipped cream nails today. I really like this cute simple style.

I co-hosting a bento meetup. Please check it out~

HERE!!

Dekoden credit card holder

2011-06-17T15:56:00.000+02:00

I made this really cute credit card holder today. What do you think? I plan to make more to sell in different colours and designs. I've ordered more credit card holders today, so I have a bunch of new on to deco on.

unannounced hiatus

2011-06-15T16:41:00.000+02:00

Been MIA, but trying to come back ^^;
I've had a lot to deal with and life has been dealing me really bad cards lately. I hope to start updating more.

I've been doing some more dekoden lately, and I ordered a whole lot of stuff for it. I've also learned how to make small fimo roses. That actually look nice.
Anyway, just a quick post to say that I'll try to update more. Bloggers that never update are boring... ^^;

What was the best advice you've ever received?

2011-03-27T16:35:00.001+02:00

Don't stay in school.

Ask me anything!!

If you could live in any house you wanted to, what would it look like?

2011-03-27T14:19:00.001+02:00

An asian inspired house. Probably with lots of furniture inmported from India. Big, but not too big nor messy.

Ask me anything!!

photos

2011-03-24T21:26:00.001+01:00

I've been doing some deco-thingies lately.

And here are some shots from my parents' house (in Sweden).

Livingroom

Kitchen

Kitchen clutter

And random me, non-photoshopped (actually I don't even have PS) and without lashes.

connect soon♫

♫

Ps. Lurve my iPhone. Whoever said that they don't like iPhone probably wasn't using it right.

I wanna drop all these limitations, but the shoes upon my feet ♥

2011-03-04T11:10:00.000+01:00

I was meant to post this yesterday, but the computer shut down unexpectadly. Luckily the draft was saved, so I only had to re-write some of this entry.

I wanted to post a quick shot of me (my legs) wearing my newest heels!

I wish my legs were thinner -__-;; It could be worse. I guess.

I went shopping today, because The Body Shop had 20% discount for members, only today. I was going to buy my usual face cream a few days ago, but they told there'd be this discount today, so I waited. I also got a goodiebag with mango body butter, body scrub and a lipbalm and a huge grapefruit showergel. I think the stuff I got was worth 3 times the amount of money I spend. Pretty neat! I love discounts

I got all this

That's all I got to write yesterday.
Today, I'm going to get my hair styled by Lee Stafford. For free! I don't really know what it's gonna be like, but I hope it's fun and that I can get some tips to get nicer and more healthy hair. I really need to get my split ends cut, btw.

I hope you'll all have nice weekend!

Connect soon ♥

Wonder Woman MAC event!

2011-03-02T00:22:00.000+01:00

Today I went to the Wonder Woman in store event at the MAC stand in Magasin, Copenhagen! I went with my friend Dina to get a quick eyemakeup done and try out the products.

I love Superheroes and I love makeup, so combined it's nearing perfection!

I already went to take a look at the collection yesterday and my gf bought this awesome nailpolish, "Spirit of Truth".
Today I just went to try out the products, and, of course, shop!!

Here's what I got:

Mineralize skinfinish blushpowder, Pink Power - It's HUGE btw!

Pigment, Marine Ultra

Reflects Glitter, Bronze

And a small blush contour brush!

Wee~

It's also what I'm wearing in the pics.

I also really liked the new Opulash Macara and some of the eyeshadow palettes and the lipglasses Athena's Kisses and Emancipation. The lipstick Marquise d' is also pretty neat! And I might buy the Russian Red lipstick, since I've wanted it for a while - And now I can get it in the Wonder Woman edition!!! Oh, I might buy it! ... Even if I'm poor ^__^;;; I really recommend any item in this collection, haahaa.

The shop had been decorated specially for the event

I'm looking forward to whatever new collaboration they might do the next time! The Disney collection was awesome, I got the Maleficent lipgloss ^^~

In my next post I'll reply to some of the comments that were left in my previous entry - About coordinates with shoes, how to walk in heels, which shoes to wear to what events and whatever comes up!

After hanging out at the shop for a hour, me and my gf went to windowshop and walk for a bit and had a nice meal <3
Now, I'll go to bed.

Connect soon

xoxo

New shoes

2011-03-01T11:54:00.000+01:00

I bought new boots and heels. You can never have too many heels, I figured, and I don't have a pair in this certain style or colour, ehem. I needed something flat to wear when I'm going to London in April, and I only have winterboots which are flat - and I'm simply just not gonna walk London thin in high heels.

The heels are so thin!

I also bought (yet another) bento box. I already have one shaped like a fish, which I got from Kris, a blue one with dots and a big pink one for onigiri. Me and my gf have been talking for months about how she wants to plan a bento-party sometime in the spring/summer. So I'm really looking forward to that. Would be so cute, and everyone could bring cute, delish bento

Weee~

Why some people use "pro"-ana forums

2011-03-01T00:52:00.001+01:00

"This relationship with my body and heart and feelings and food and hormones and structure is so delicate and fragile at times, and is complicated in a way a lot of people don't understand.
There can be a flippancy and lack of empathy toward it based on people's limited understanding. The care and sense of love and community around this subject that I share with fellow strugglers is all the more profound based on the massive misunderstandings that there have been around it."

-am

Also adding a FUCK OFF
- to the person who likes to leave ridiculously rude comments once in a while or press "that sucks" 6 times in a row when I mention that I got back together with my ex. I don't know what your problem is, but it must be a serious one. Just leave me alone, grow up, get a life.

Stop blogging??

2011-02-23T00:40:00.000+01:00

I'm considering just stopping blogging and deleting this blog.
I don't write much, though I'd like to, but I never have any interesting to write about appearently.
I'm not very pretty and I'm fat, so I don't feel like posting pictures like others do.
I don't feel well at all and I'm lonely.
Getting almost no comments ever makes me feel more lonely and un-interesting.

So maybe I should just delete this blog.

Btw, today is my 25th birthday.
Birthdays sucks, especially this one. Just reminds me that another year has past and I'm still a failure.

Swan to watch

2011-02-04T17:23:00.001+01:00

I went to the movies a while ago and watched Black Swan, so I wanted to do a review.

Black Swan review

Darren Aronofsky's Black Swan is set in the New York City Ballet. Nina (Natalie Portman) plays a young, childlike ballerina who still lives at home with her domineering mother, Erica. When the Ballet decides to retire their aging star, Beth (Winona Ryder) and set up a production of Swan Lake, Nina is chosen to portray the roles of the virginal White Swan and her evil twin, the Black Swan.
The film is essentially about the sacrifices performers have to make for the sake of art and the psysical and psychological pressure put on them. We follow Nina through the dual processes of creation and destruction and as she is spinning into paranoia and jealousy overdrive. The sound editing with enhanced sounds of rasped breath, nail clipping and scratchings is claustrophobic, and if you have an aversion, like me, towards nailinjuries, there are some hard to watch moments. It's one of the more psychosocial and disturbing films I've seen recently, though the quick scares may come off as cheap, it's still horrifying.
All in all, it's dark and disturbing and if you like movies that play with your mind, you should watch it.

At the same time, if you're already battling a mental disorder/eating disorder or are prone to delusions or hallucinations, this film may affect you more deeply and more horrifyingly than the average person. I actually had to up my dosis of antipsychotic medicin the days after watching it (may be for several reasons), and I've seen the movie mentioned in Pro-Ana communities.

January update

2011-01-21T11:44:00.000+01:00

Sorry for the lack of updating.
Christmas always get me. No matter how nice I think Christmas is, it just ends up too complicated.
A lot has been happening lately, and though I feel glad about certain things in my life, I have also been depressed and stressed out more than usual.
And depression = Binge City, population 1.
Which means I gained a lot of weight and I don't really feel like going anywhere at all. Food seems to be on my mind constantly. I can't imagine what it's like not to think about it all the time and just eat when you're hungry and have a nice slim body at the same time. Seems a bit unfair to me.

I hope things will be looking up soon, because I'm at the end of my rope here.

Christmas-shopping and lots of pictures!

2010-12-06T18:20:00.000+01:00

I'm still really happy about the new haircolour! Here's some pics ^_^;

In this one you can see the nails that I've done. They're kind of short, but I'm a bit tired of the really long type. I did a sort of midnight-blue with silver stars and stones. So pretty. But I haven't got a nice shot of them...

I've been doing a bit of Christmas-shopping! I've ordered Rikke's gift and one of my brother's. I've also found some small stuff for my grandmother and aunt, and I know what to buy for my parents and two cousins. Still need to figure out what to buy for my youngest brother (He's 17) and for my friend Anne. She have some wishes from Amazon, but I've gotten them just too late to order. I heard someone ordered yesterday and the estimated delivery was Dec. 23rd. So I don't really want to take the risk of the stuff coming too late! I'll have to find something else, but it sucks >_>;
I've also bought some cute gift-bags and I'll have to go pick up giftwrapping and pretty ribbons later this week. I love wrapping the gifts nicely, I almost think the wrapping is as important as what's inside. I think it's important that they look nice and pretty and that people can see how much time and thought one have spent on making it look cute ^_^;
I'm trying to finish the Christmas-shopping as early as possible so I won't get so stressed.

Me and my friend Dina 8D

And just for lulz, look at this ooold photo of me. Think it's about 3 years old. Wee~

On Dec. 26th I'll go to our house in Sweden to spend the Christmas holidays. I really look forward to it! I can't wait to see how much snow is there! There's lots of snow here already, but probably more in Sweden. I'm packing my big ski-jacekt and winterboots so I can play in the snow all day!

Hope we don't snow in though, cause I have to make it home in time for New Year's X'D

Btw.... I WANT PHOTOSHOP!! \(´O`)/

Take care everyone!

New haircolour + concert

2010-12-02T17:12:00.001+01:00

I dyed my hair. From blond to chocolatebrown. I had really been needing a change for quite a while and I figured it was time (^_^)

I really have nothing other than cellphone pictures! (;__;)

Yesterday I went to Dúné's concert in Store Vega (Copenhagen). I've seen them twice before. 1st time as warm-up for MUSE about 3 years ago and the 2nd time in February 2008. In the meantime they've become way more popular, and I was surprised that a big chunk of the fanbase seem to be 9th graders. Don't think I like that fact :/ Haha.

Anyway, the concert was awesome and energetic as always. I took bad quality pics with my phone. Don't know why I didn't bring a camera (other than the fact that I don't own a camera!).

Though I took them with a cellphone with a rather bad camera, I think they turned out alright despite that fact. I was rather close to the stage, but not close enough to grope the leadsinger as he jumped into the crowd. Too bad!! ^_~ theehee...

I really love going to concerts. I feel so much better....!!

There were some other stuff I wanted to talk about, but that's too much for this post, so that'll be later on ^_^

Ps. MATTIAS ♥ (Hold på hat og briller... Og kæreste...)

2010-11-29T18:37:00.000+01:00

Hm, okay, so, I've fallen for my ex. Isn't that okay to do?
It's not the recent ex, it's the one before him.
I don't know what people will think about it...

Please give me your thoughts on this...

concert/dream-talk/HP/The Killers ♥

2010-11-27T18:25:00.003+01:00

On Dec. 1st I'm going to the Danish band Dúné's concert in CPH. Bought the tickets the minute they came out. I've seen them twice before - One time when they were first gaining popularity, and another time as warm-up for Muse.

The lead singer is kinda hawt. Idk, he just is...

Last night I had a dream that I went to a Brandon Flowers concert (lead singer of The Killers). It was epic! The concert was in some sort of weird cave-like place, with multiple stages. And I won some kind of contest and went to have brunch with him. And his wife felt very slighted. Haha (^_^)/

I woke up for a while and when I fell asleep again I had a dream about Harry Potter. We were on the run from Voldemort (obviously). And Dumbledore was showing us this book (kinda like the Book of Shadows HP-style) and we accidently did some sort of spell that revealed our location to the Malfoys. In the end we escaped on a big thestral. And I remember I kept thinking "I can see it, I can see it" - Guess all this makes no sense if you havn't read HP.

I also remember various climpses. Like me and Hermione trying to hide in a suitcase, and everyone going, "It's no problem, you can easily fit" while I was thinking, "wtf".

I'm re-reading book 7, so I think I know why I had this dream xD Can't wait for part 2 of the movie! What I also look forward to is buying a box with all the movies together. I only have the first 2 on dvd, and I bought them in Japan - mostly for the fun of listening to the Japanese dub. Cause it's hilarious! I should throw a Japanese Harry Potter dvd night!

Anyway, since Christmas is nearing you should all watch and listen to this song! ♥

A BULLET IN YOUR WHAT?! O_O

I love how The Killers does a x-mas song each year, the profit going to various causes. This year, All proceeds go to the Global Fund to fight Aids in Africa.

Sims3

2010-11-26T21:02:00.000+01:00

I've been playing The Sims 3 quite a lot recently.
Anyway, there's been, erm, issues with the babies. Everytime my sim got a baby it looked like something outta Silent Hill! So creepy, with looong clawy hands...

YOU SEE?!

Also, I don't ever remember naming my sim Yat Sen. She went to China and came back as Yat Sen. Appearently she also got a son over there. Wtf? Something is clearly up with my game!

In the end, I fixed the baby-thing. Something was wrong with the clothing. Realized when my sim got a toddler boy wearing women's highheeled boots.. hmm...

2010-11-26T15:06:00.002+01:00

If you never really try, you can't ever say you did your best.

Blogspot error

2010-11-25T22:54:00.000+01:00

One reason for why I haven't been updating much, is that I can only upload one picture from my computer at a time. For the love of G**, I don't understand why! And uploading on photobucket or smth similar seems such a hassle when I can much easier upload directly from the computer to blogspot. Only I can't! Argh! I can only upload 1 photo pr. entry. WHY IS THAT!!

seriously...

2010-11-23T19:02:00.002+01:00

Mu blog sucks so bad, doesn't it? Really.. I have no idea what to do with it.
I've been totally MIA.

Any ideas for how I can make this blog work??

On another note - Watched Chaos Theory yesterday. Still love Ryan Reynolds. Soon I'll watched Paperman. Don't know if it's any good - But who cares >:P

2010-11-16T17:59:00.000+01:00

my life would suck without you

celebrity spam + shoe-want + gif back hair!!

2010-10-29T19:30:00.001+02:00

I've fallen totally off the grid lately (;_;) I usually check out certain celebrity-diet sites and numorous blogs every day, but the past 3 months or so, I've totally lacked the energy

I've also stopped dressing up, doing my hair, nails and so on. I'm in serious need of a comeback

So, I've got around to check out some stuff I usually don't, and I have a few pics and opinions to share (not that it's important, anywaaay..)

I think Scarlett Johansson looks a bit thinner lately. Maybe it's just my imagination. But she didn't look like this in Lost in Translation, I know for sure.

I love Rachel Bilson, but she looks like a homeless... She probably went for a hobo-chik look, but she just looks hobo.

I so want these shoes! They're awesome inspiration! Every time I look at them, coordinates just pop into my mind!

Oh, and I miss my old hairstyle....

Also got this old photo from Japan. It's pretty crappy, but I get so many memories every time I look at it

that's it for now

Buried Review

2010-10-28T15:45:00.000+02:00

I figured it was time for the Buried review.

I went to the Danish pre-premiere on Buried some time ago. I was interested in the plot, and (mostly) Ryan Reynolds, as the solo actor of the movie.
Buried is a concept movie about a man who wakes up buried alive in an old wooden coffin in the middle of the dessert. A low-budget film which manages to keep you feeling claustrophobic and thrilled the entire time.
Despite the whole "man-in-a-box" concept, it doesn't get boring or over-used at any time. I'd imagine it as almost impossible to not be sucked in by the story and the character.
Ryan Reynolds delivers a quite memorable performance, with only himself and no humour, looks or abs to rely on.
He portrays a U.S contractor working in Iraq, who gets kidnapped and is buried alive with only a lighter and a cellphone (and a few other devices). Through the cell he stays in contact with his kidnapper, his family, his employees and a search team throughout the entire film.
I can't say too much about the movie without ruining it - it has to be seen. At least for the concept and the interesting cast.

Other than that, I'm pleased to see Ryan Reynolds in a more "serious" movie than Van Wilder, Just friends, Definately maybe and the likes. Though that kind of movies can be entertaining, I like a more 'challenging' movie to watch. I'm still hyped about "The Nines". If you like Ryan Reynolds, and weird movies, you should watch it.
It, being both Buried and The Nines.

proper update?

2010-10-27T23:11:00.007+02:00

I was doing some thinking - if someone could just combine Ryan Reynolds, Cillian Murphy and parts of Brandon Flowers into one person, wouldn't that be like.. the best?
I mean, you know I like~~love~~ Ryan Reynolds, and Cillian Murphy and his insanely, piercing blue eyes are ~~sexy~~cute in this kinda creepy way - And Brandon Flowers makes awesome music/lyrics and sings his heart out like he mean it! Wooh! (take away the mormon-part, thx)
Really, someone should make a Stepford Husband out of them. Yes.
Hell, throw in Adam Brody and his sarcastic sense of humour too. (And the fact that he was a jewish emo kid on the O.C - oh, and cause he likes death cab for cutie)
Wouldn't that make an awesome boyfriend?
wouldn't someone please change the dumbass photos on imdb's site?
Wait, I'm past boyfriends - I should probably go for manfriends now.
And speaking of boyfriends.

"...the guy I fell in love with as I was taking leave of my marriage... Did I say that I "fell in love"? What I meant to say is that I dove out of my marriage and into --'s arms. I clung to -- for escape from marriage as if he was the last helicopter pulling out of Saigon.I inflicted upon him my every hope for my salvation and happiness..."

eat, pray, love

Obviously, no one lives up to expectations like that, and I was crazy, thinking for a whole month after our relationship ended that there was any hope he'd say "COME BACK, I'LL CHANGE!" - and I was crazy wanting that at all. It was clearly not a beneficial relationship for me, and though I respect the feelings I had towards him, I also respect that they never grew deeper (despite how deep I imagined they could be).
It's not easy for a crazy infatuation to evolve into true love. And I'll learn to live with it, as what it was - merely an infatuation. A big one which blew me away. But nothing more. And that's okay.
And I respect him, at any level I can. But it's not what I want, and it's clearly not what I need.

I should date someone at my own spiritual age. I was told. (But I don't feel like dating a 45 yo. who've been through 3 failed marriages and has now been enlightened and is a vegetarian - and at some point lived in India)
So I'm taking a timeout.

☺

That's about my life atm. And it's all okay ♥

Ps.

Dear John Letter

2010-10-13T19:48:00.000+02:00

(young Mischa Barton!)

I'm sorry I can't help you, I cannot keep you safe

I'm sorry I can't help myself, so don't look at me that way

we can't fight gravity on a planet that insists

that love is like falling

and falling is like this.

I guess everything is timing, and I guess everything's been said

:(

2010-09-19T09:27:00.000+02:00

My boyfriend broke up with me :'(

Hope we can work it out again sometimes when the timing is better.

happy days and infections

2010-08-07T15:28:00.002+02:00

I figured I'd do an update about what I've been doing recently!

Monday I hung out with Dina and Anne at Field's, and had sushi at Dina's workplace. Yum! We just talked about anything, and it was nice to hang out with both of them.
Tuesday I went to the doctor! I have a bladderinfection, probably what they call Honeymoon cystitis. Blah. It has happened to me before when I meet someone new, and it's quite normal.
Wednesday my boyfriend met my parents. I think they really liked him, and he liked them, so it's fine. I was nervous, but not too much, and as I suspected, it was fine.
Thursday and Friday me and my boyfriend just hung out at watched Supernatural. We're at the 4th season now, and next time I see him we'll watch more! Still can't wait to watch season 5, I'd just prefer watching it on dvd! I really had a nice time with him and we talked about so much stuff <3
Today I'm just staying on the couch, cause this bladderinfection seem to force me to relax and stay under the covers.
Tomorrow I haven't got plans either, so hopefully by Monday I'll feel better ^__^
Monday I'll hopefully visit Mia, and later sleep at Anne's place. We'll hunt for apartments! I hope we can find an awesome 2 bedroom place with a shared living-kitchen area or something like that. I hate that it's so hard to find apartments. Inother parts of Denmark (not near Copenhagen) the apartments are so cheap. Booh.. I also really look forward to seeing Mia, so I hope I can visit her! It's been a long time since I visited her at her place! ^_^
Tuesday I'll visit my boyfriend,
Thursday I'll hang out with Momo,
Friday Kris will come visit!! She'll be in CPH because of Fashion Week, so she'll come to my place Friday and stay till Saturday.
I'm planning to have a party or hit the city Saturday night.
Sunday it's me and my boyfriend's 1 month anniversary. I don't get how fast this months went. I hope we can afford to go out for dinner or something.

This was a really boring update, but I just felt like it.

Anyway, here'sa picture of me:

(untitled)

2010-08-05T16:53:00.001+02:00

I recieved a rather strange comment on my last entry... Did you read it? I have no idea who it is from, but I feels like someone who seems to not really understand what my post was about, or someone who has a beef with me in some sort of way. Wtf!?

We started up at the hospital again after the vacation.
Monday was fine and it felt nice to see everyone again ^_^
Tuesday we had the "body-therapy" or what to call it, and everyone totally broke down because this one person suddenly talked about incest and sexual abuse. I wasn't able to feel anything other than cold, cause it's a subject I think a lot about but have no idea how to talk about. Yet. I felt pushed aside cause I didn't have a strong outer reaction like the others.
Today was fine, but too long. Wasn't home till 4pm.

My boyfriend is visiting <3
The hospital recommends not seeing someone new during the treatment as it tends to take away the focus from the problems because you'd tend to only think about this new love of yours.
So I'm very attentive to this and to not letting anything or anyone come (unintentionally) between me and the treatment...

No more self-sabotaging and no more trying to prevent happy endings or sweet words (though it's scary as hell)
And no more time-outs from feeling anything. It's hard though, I seem to block everything I feel, the good and the bad. I have no idea how I feel actually...

But he's so sweet <3

ranting again for no reason

2010-08-02T23:11:00.001+02:00

So, I don't nessecarily mean this in a negative way, but I feel like I'M GOING KINDA CRAZY right now!
I'm bored, I'm restless, my life is spiraling endlessly in a hide and seek game with myself.
I'm totally losing myself, and I won't even admit it. I really don't know how I feel about anything these days.
I'm keep changing my mind and I keep drawing people in or push them away.
I don't know when to shut up and I don't know when to speak my mind. I keep saying the wrong things at the wrong times. I keep begging and pleading for a feedback or input that's just not gonna come.

I feel misunderstood and I'm annoyed with the system.

And so, I've hurt people, I've lied, cheated, manipulated them to get what I want.
But, being a complete egocentric - I've lied to, cheated on, and manipulated myself too - And isn't that worse, in the end? Shouldn't I be big enough to apoligize to myself first and foremost?
I'm sick of being a puppet on strings, controlled by myself and my addictions and abuse.
Why does my selfworth have to be determined by the scales?
Why do I feel like running away when I think about the future?
Why do I ask for so much from people who haven't got the answers?
Why am I demanding and gready and controlling?
Twisted, confused, ambivalent.

I can't seem to come through in anything.

Maybe I should join some freak sect in search of enlightenment?
Maybe I should become a catholic, say my Ave Marias and be forgiven? - The thing is, I don't believe in God (I'm a realist in that sense).

:)

Just felt like venting somewhere ♥

eternal sunshine

2010-07-31T16:55:00.001+02:00

The past week I've been with my boyfriend. We were together for over a week and I didn't even get sick of him.
My friend Anne also visited for a few days, just chilling.
We started watching Supernatural (agaaaain), and I'm totally hooked (once again) - Still haven't watched the 5th season, though I'm dying to. But for now I'm re-watching seasons 1-4, being at season 2 now. I look forward to the 4th, cause I think it's probably the best season! Oh, and the cliffhanger! *excited*
Yesterday Dina came over to watch movies and eat delicious food! We watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I usually steer away from the movie, though it's one of my favorite movies of all time - Cause it just reminds me too much of me and some of the relationships I've been in. Clementine is kind of a spitting image of how I feel on the inside (minus the haircolour thing - I've grown past that - for now).
We talked for hours before going to bed, and it was awesome to talk about everything - You know those nights when you're completely shameless and just share every embarressing little silly detail about anything? Well, it was like that >:D

Anyway, I don't really have much to say, just wanted to do a short update =D
Next time I'll post pictures >:D heehee...

Joel: I can't see anything that I don't like about you.
Clementine: But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me.
Joel: Okay.
Clementine: [pauses] Okay.

♥

kings&queens

2010-07-22T20:41:00.001+02:00

A few days ago when my friend, Anne, stayed at my place we came to discuss Jared Leto. His weight, his hair and everything else. (And my teenage-crush on him♥)
So I wanted to post the Kings & Queens video, but for some reason youtube's code-thing is not working right now?! So I'm just posting the link. (tried several videos, non working - probably just me)
It's not that I really like his face - actually he's looking quite old(er). Mostly his eyebrows are just annoying me. But I love his hair - and I love his silhouette! That may sound weird, but I do. Admittedly, his pants might be a bit too tight >:) But... Anyway, he's looking better than he did in, let's say, The Kill - he's slimmer and he's so much better looking with short, upright hair (I think). Even if he's a grown man, he looks like a boy ♥
I've never been af fan of the longish emo hairdo -__-;; I prefer the boys cheeky and spunky ;D
It's sort of a shame, but I like skinny boys. Though preferably still athletic. (A shame, because skinny is not very healthy, and I feel fat next to them)
I'm quite demanding I guess >:C (<--- favorite smiley these days - along with this one >:D silly...)

Some time ago I was making this list of needs and wants that I have, when speaking of men/relationships, inspired by lyrics and whatever from the top of my head.
It's not like I walk around with a clipboard, writing down the feats of the men that I run into - But sometimes I want to. And it's silly, cause I feel like an ugly and worhtless person, so who am I to want anything in others? It's not that I like to put pressure on people, but it's okay to dream right? >:D

masculine and feminine
politically aware
athletic
funny
adventurous
uninhibited in bed
see everything as an illusion
vulnerable
sexysexysexy
brave
have a big intellectual capacity
warm
appreciative of the written word
experimental
charming
open minded
a word smith
opinionated
able to cry
headstrong
not religious, yet spiritual
fueled by compassion
wise beyond your years
not addicted
attentive
firm
my protégé and guardian
authentic
secure
trusting

And never done ♥
(always able to strive for more)

Is it realistic for one person to be all this?
I hope so ♥

save the earth/heart

2010-07-21T22:39:00.002+02:00

Yesterday I met up with Dina and went to a cafe ♥
I had this new summer-smooTea-thing. And I didn't really like it. Why did I choose something fruity over something sugary and sweet - what's wrong with me!
It's been a while since I really had the time to talk to her. There's so much I need to talk to someone about, but I barely scratched the surface.
Anyway, I still had a really nice time. She seemed down, but I hope she's okay. I hope I can hang out with her again soon ♥
Later we met up with my boyfriend (meep♥) and got some food and sat at the canals talking for hours in the sun. I really feel like I made some nice memories at that time. I know it was just any ordinary day, but the weather was nice, the people were nice and we just chilled and talked about nothing and everything.

I slept at the boyfriend's place. I don't know why, but we seem to end up having these late night discussions. I'm definately trying to raise the bar on our conversations, but sometimes it seems to go too far. It's not like we argue, but we end up annoying eachother or cry our eyes out, and we end up hiding or not realizing what we really feel and want. But I'm sure we'll work that out. It takes time getting to know one another, and it's easy to just label the other person as absurd before really taking time figuring out who they are.
But we're getting there. And I really like him ♥
There's so much I wanna say about him, but I seem to lose my words and mind.
Do you wanna see our picture?

Anyway, I have to move in about 3 months time. I'm hoping to get a big apartment where I can live with friends and bring my cats - or alternately my own small place - or becoming someone's roomie. Anyone has any suggestions? If you need to get rid of your apartment, let me know ♥

Btw, about the title - I'm really into this "quote" right now. I like how heart and earth are all the same letters in different order. And I like contemplating whether the earth or the heart is most important - And was the key to saving the earth right in our hearts this whole time? Do we sometimes need to look away from our political awareness and take a look at our own heart before judging others mistakes? Do we sometimes need to remember that there's more to the world than ourselves and our broken hearts? And maybe we should learn to find a balance between two important things. What my life is about - finding the balance, a common ground.
If I should ever have a tattoo, I'd want this tattooed somewhere secret and hidden.
Because it's me at this time. It would be a nice reminder to keep my feet on the ground once in a while.

♥

These are the questions...?

2010-07-20T10:23:00.001+02:00

I thought I'd be better at updating like I wanted to - But then I just get caught up in something else and everything seems so out of context, that I don't know what's up or down - and how can I write about that?
I feel like I've been stripped of my identity and I'm fragile and made of glass.
All my feelings are so ambivalent and I keep changing my mind and being unsure.

I'm going through a tough breakout with all the stings and wounds that comes with it.
And I'm going through falling in love with someone new.
And how can that be at the same time?

Am I always in search of someone to complete me? Someone who have the pieces that I miss?
If I'm not single can I still be me and learn to stand up on my own? But did I feel more as myself when I was alone?
How can I meet someone who's all that at a time like this? I don't wanna lie to myself.
But how can someone have so many feats from all these different kinds of worlds that I'm attracted to?
How can a new person get to know me as "me" when I'm in this state of mind that I'm in now? Is that really me?
Am I too dumb, am I too smart? Am I too funny, am I too whining? Am I too mature, am I too dark?
I don't even know who I am - Who are you to define me then?

How will I ever be connected?
How will I ever be safe and traditional and married with children (or maybe adopt)? Will I be mature and at peace and healed? Enlightened, trusting, spacious, authentic and whole?

2010-07-15T14:36:00.000+02:00

My blog seems to be dying on me!!
So much stuff is happening, good and bad, and I think it just taking it's toll on me.
I invited some friends over on Saturday. Originally we wanted to bake some party brownies, but we'll just stick to the booze! Can't wait to see Mia!
Dina is in Paris with her boyfriend till Friday, but I hope she can make it on Saturday. Feels like ages since I've seen her. And Kris is in Firenze for something school related, and I miss her too. I have so much I need to talk to them about! Love, life, boys, friends <3
I can't wait for Kris to come back, but it's still 1 1/2 weeks - and then she'll start her internship-thing, so I have no idea when I'll see her. Hopefully she's coming over for Copenhagen Fashion Week <3

I uploaded really old pics on facebook. I rarely use this computer, but since Momo went away from the apartment for a few weeks, I'm using this old shit-thing :D So I found tons of lame photos. Some made me happy, some made me sad. There were pictures of everything. All my Japan trips, my different hairstyles, friends from Japan and friends from home. Oh, memory lane...
My aunt offered me to look after their house when they go on vacation, but since Momo is gone, I'll have to stay here and take care of the cats and so on. Would have been nice with a sort of vacation at their place. But it's fine ^^,

Where are you guys going for the summer holidays?
I'm taking a summer break from the hospital. Anne is coming to stay for a whole week, so we'll probably have fabulous cocktails and watch lame movies for a whole week!

This entry is so pointless :$

There is someone I want to say something about. But I don't know what to say <3

50!

2010-07-13T23:20:00.000+02:00

This is actually my 50th entry in this blog. And it's just gonna be a quicky ;D nothing special about it. I'm not taking it out for dinner or anything.

Anyway, I suspect that my recent post must have come off as quite negative - though writing it, I just felt content and though I more or less felt like vomiting at the thought of getting hurt, I still just have to see where it goes.
So, where am I now?
At the same place? Or maybe better? At least a few of my questions and worries were answered in satisfying manner - maybe I can let go more, maybe I can learn to trust people without putting them through a cross examination or grilling them? I don't know. I still have too many unsolved issues and I don't think it's gonna change overnight.
I've read your comments a few times, and as much as I appriciate them, I realized that I think my subject was misunderstood. My concern and worry were about love-relations more than friend-relations. I was pretty unclear about it, I know D: But you comments were sweet and helpful, as always ^_^

So yesterday I visited someone and just hung out and watched movies. The weather was way too hot and I was way too tired, so when the rain and thunder came at night everything more or less just cleared up and I slept better, and more, than I have in the past many many nights!!
I love thunder!!
Today I've been cleaning- cleaning is a wrong word, I've more or less just been throwing stuff around the bedroom, hoping it would end up in the right drawer/place. It didn't though, so it's just a big mess of clothes and shoes :D Yay, shoes..!

I'll finish it tomorrow.
Now I'll go sleep. I'm really tired. Hope I can sleep

<3 <3

I have no idea what to tag this entry as D: ahaha...

how to keep people at arms lenght and never get too close?

2010-07-12T05:09:00.002+02:00

Such communication - seems I did my disappearing act again.

It's been 2 weeks and real life just dropped a crapload of shit on me.
And I'm sleepless - guess who woke up at 3.30 this morning? I only slept 3 hours (again).
It just feels like these forces are pulling me in every direction, my insides are being torn apart. I'm losing part of myself with every hour of sleep that I lose.

I let the cat out at 4.30, and the smell of this damp world reminded my so much of Japan in the morning.
I miss it. My urgency to run away and ditch this world becomes stronger by the minute.
Yet I'm afraid of putting myself out there.
I really don't wanna go out there.
I've been through this before.

But you know what - It's not something you can ignore. It's right there in front of me like a big dark forest. And I can't go around it, or over it or under it - I have to go rigth through it and take all the cuts and bruises on the way. But maybe things will be better once on the other side?

I wish I could do some more positive blogging. Cause it's not all shit, I just make it sound like it is...

I'm afraid of trusting someone who my friend says "just be careful" about. I'm afraid that I'm so afraid I'll fuck it up - yet I'm afraid to be careless and ignore any sign of danger. Cause this is not fun for me - I don't wanna be someone's summer-fling and I don't wanna be someone next to many others. I'm worth being treated better than that, right? If I'm just another temporary quickfix while in search for something deeper - then I'm not gonna do it. I don't wanna be lied to and manipulated. I don't want people to say "told you so" or "what else could you expect".
I don't wanna have to have these worries. But it's hard to let go. I'm a mistrusting person, you'll have to earn my trust, and if I'm not worth the work, then so be it.
At the same time I just wanna throw myself into any opportunity. Taking risks and getting hurt is part of being human - I just wish I didn't have to be, just for a while.
Maybe all I really want is something I can be sure of, something I don't have to mistrust and expect the worst from.
I just want to be happy. Why is that so difficult??
I need friends and support, I need something real to hold onto.
I make it sound like such a big deal - I don't even know if it is. But it's the thoughts that I have on this matter.

Today I'll visit someone, and I'll just pretend that there's no world outside his windows. I don't wanna think about it anymore.

I lost my appetite and 6 lbs. More please. I'm getting addicted to the hunger cause it's a feeling.
It's not the way to go.
I'm not eating, it's eating me.

This is way too pessimistic. I'm sorry. Maybe I'll do a happy blog tomorrow!
Let's hope <3

I'm sorry I haven't replied to the last comments. I'll get around to it - you just caught me at a bad time.

not so sweet 16

2010-06-25T14:01:00.002+02:00

I'm sitting here, horrified, as I watch Sweet 16... This girl is having a Japan fest *shiver* - have you ever seen this episode?! Well, it's just... plain scary. She's just insane and has absolutely no concept of what the so-called "Harajuku"-style is... Eek.. Sorry, had to rant XD

I know I haven't been updating for a while. I've been a bit busy with real life, and I just didn't have time.
I've tried to check out everyone's blogs, but I haven't had time to comment just yet!

I've started doing yogalates - the best buy in a long time was clearly a yogamat. Should have bought one years ago!! Yogalates is a mix between yoga and pilates, and if you think it's just about flailing your arms about... Think again - it's actually quite tough and you can really feel it in your body the next day. So I started it this wednesyday, for about an hour a day. I love it ♥

I also wanted to reply/comment on some of the comments I got recently. Since blogger have the suckiest comment/reply system ever (I'm not the only one who thinks that, rigth??) I'll reply to the comments in my own blog - but only when I feel it has something to do with what I'll be writing in my blog anyway.
So, Mia recently asked how the treatment is going - So I'll talk about that for a bit.
I'm still going to the hospital every Monday+Tuesday+Thursday. I like having Wednesday and Friday off, it really helps not getting so stressed out. I'll be following this until the end of November.
But about the treatment - it's not really making me "better", but definately more aware of some things that I do wrong/can change, but also making me think more about what kind of sh*t I should take from other people, when I should say no and so on. I'm kind of the forgiving type, but I'll start thinking more about myself, and I'll start not putting myself out there for some people, when there is no real foundation for a friendship anymore. I'll stop trying when I'm the only one who wants something to work. I'll stop being the only one to call or text - I'm tired of having to take all the responsibility of keeping in touch and always having to wait for reply or call back when nothing comes. I'm really glad that Mia and I worked things out, it was putting a huge strain on me, worrying about our friendship so much. I should stop spending so much time with people that make me so worried and sad, don't you think?? Isn't it stupid of me, always putting up with it?? help!I've also got some new medication. It's kinda crossing my personal line, writing about this here, but some of the things I need to work on is being more honest and open to people, telling about myself.
It's an anti-psychotic remedy for skizofrenia. I'm getting the lowest doses, and I don't have to take it when I feel "well". It's still scary getting a drug so "serious" - it's not like getting prozac...
Well, enough about that.
I'd like to talk to Mia about it in person, but we've had to cancel our plans. Again. There's been a mess up with my money, and I won't have any money in the bank until August!! I'm so broke! I don't know how to pay the rent, the bills, food and so on...
So I had to cancel, I don't have money to go visit her :(

Anyway, Kris asked for a review of the movie with Ryan Reynolds that I recently watched...!
Actually he's also in the Amityville Horror, and though I know she meant Chaos Theory, I'll do a review of both of them. My next update (probably later tonight) will include the reviews of these two movies.
Kris, do you like Ryan Reynolds?? ♥

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monday musings

2010-06-21T19:45:00.002+02:00

I didn't really have the time to update yesterday - or maybe that's a lie, cause when I think about it now, I have absolutely no recollection of what I actually did yesterday...!! Must have had plenty of time... wait, I had some homemade sushi...
But after my insanely looong post Saturday, which I'm surprised that you cared to read ♥, I figured I didn't really have anything to blog about yesterday.

Today I went to the hospital and had a sort of "pick up"-talk - About how it's been going so far, what they think of my treatment and so on.
It's kinda hard to hear when they have something negative to say, but often I tend to only hear the negative part of it - never the positive. I guess it's cause I only think negative about myself, that I suspect others to only think negative of me... I guess that makes sense?

Also, since it's becoming the norm, me and Momo are renting some movies...
Here's what we'd like to watch...:
Zach & Miri make a porno - Have you seen it ?? XD It sounds freaky!
The Amityville Horror - Should be nasty/scary?
Transformers 2 - Because when you watch no. 1, you have to watch no. 2?! Right?
Chaos Theory - This sounds weird XD - Nude icehockey with Ryan Reynolds...!? (seriously not tagging him this time!)
Goya's Ghost - Is it sad?
- I'll probably do a review on some of them sometime, if you'd like -

I love renting movies that are no longer popular, haha ^_^;; I always wait till the new movies have become cheap to rent, before watching them. You practically get them thrown at you to keep for a whole week...
I'm not really a fan of watching things off of the internet (unless it's something there's no other way to get - like Japanese tvshows), so I'm a big supporter of either renting or buying movies...! ♫♪♫

Anyway, I heard that Brandon Flowers (The Killers) is releasing his debut solo thing today - though only in the US and Canada.. (Do you have any idea how many times I wished to be Canadian when I was younger...!? Canada rocks - Maybe I'll make a post about why some day =D)

And on a short note before wrapping this up - I'd just like to thank the nice people that read my blog, and all you lovely people that care to comment ♥ It really makes a difference to me that you care to take time to read and write to me ♥ I can't tell you how much I appriciate every single comment - it makes my day every time ♥ there are some of you here, I feel like I can count more on, and share more with, than some of the people I see a lot in my everyday life. And nothing means more to me, than being able to count on, and trust, someone.
Thank you! ♥

celebrities & Superheroes ... or villains...

2010-06-19T16:46:00.002+02:00

Hi guys!

Since I feel my last post doesn't really fall in thread with how and what my blog really is, I figured I should update again, since I'd like to keep some different kinds of posts at the top of my page.

In a few days I'll probably edit or delete the previous post.

Anyway, onto some talk about celebrity weights! Woohoo, haha XD
Remember a while ago when I blogged about Kelly Osbourne's weightloss? She seems to have lost, or at least toned up, more now

The picture is from 2010 "New Now Next Awards" held in LA on June 8th (I think...)

What do you guys think? I think it's crazy that she lost so much weight! Thumbs up! Her arms needs more toning, but we're all build different and may have different problem areas. For me, my arms are the easiest part to get toned. What's your problem area? And what bodypart do you like the most?

Her legs have a nice tan! ^_^;

I saw some pictures of Kristin Stewart. I think she's too skinny, and her boobs are just tiiiiiiiny - Not that big boobs are the only way to go, but when someone is skinny, it's clearly (often) the reason why they have no boobs...! I'll post the picture in a upcoming blog.

What's your opinion of her? (In case you don't know, she's playing Bella in the Twilight movies...)

Mia was supposed to come by today for some movies, but sadly she's not feeling so well. Aaw. Well, it's okay, cause I feel kinda sluggish. Maybe I'll watch the X-men movies... =D

Which one is your favorite X-men movie?? Does the Wolverine movie count?? The only reason why that one would be my favorite one is quite obvious... (If you've been reading my blog lately, it's hard not to notice a crazy obsession with someone....) - Anyway, I don't know which one's my favorite after all...

Speaking of.. someone (I'm sick of tagging him, okay! The tag is growing too big, it's embarressing...), the Green Lantern movie is already filming, and the costume is going to be almost entirely computergenerated ~~!!so he'll be naked!!~~ - no really, the suit is a grey tracking motion/performance capture suit with LED lights - quite awesome that it's actually possible to do that kinda stuff. Back when only silent movies where made, it must have been impossible to imagine what future movies would be like!

I saw some pictures from on-set, and though it's not gonna premiere until June 17th 2011, I'm exited - because I like comics, okay!

I still seem to be unable to comprehend that both Deadpool and the Green Latern will go on the big screen in 2011 - With the same actor!! Aarrhh....

Btw, I read that DC Comics hired some "dudes" to work on the sequel for the Green Lantern - I guess they suspect the movie to be a success. ;D
They're also working on a movie featuring The Flash (Barry Allen), and one of the writers are also working on the Fantastic Four film relaunch for Marvel.

New live-action movies in the Batman and Superman franchises are in development, as well! A Green Lantern animated series will air on Cartoon Network in fall 2011. ~~omg~~I think that's it for comicbook-universe-updates!! For now...

Oh wait, Ry-- ... Ryan Reynolds was the one who, in 2005, asked DC to do a movie adaption of The Flash. However, he won't be in it, since he's quite busy with, well, Deadpool and the Green Lantern already, do'h.

Way back, the rumour said that Adam Brody was going to be The Flash in a new Justice League movie, however those plans seems to have gone down the drain...?? I really wanted him to do The Flash - I love Adam Brody, seriously, I did name my cat after his character in The O.C....! Anyway, there's no info on who's gonna portray The Flash.. Booh...

I'm crazy, right =D

Guess I have to tag him afterall

Just a short note!!

2010-06-19T13:50:00.004+02:00

Previously I mentioned that if you'd like to give out your own advice and tips, I suggest you post about it in your own blog - I have to mention it again.
When I recommend a product, it's something I like and which works for me. It may not work for you. It's fine to add something useful, suggest or comment on the product - But this is not a forum to discuss if something is good or not - It's my blog and I suggest and recommend things I like.
I also want to add that the tips that others add here are not nessecarily things that I agree with, and I get the feeling that I can't have something on my blog that I may not be able to support or agree with. If you understand?
So, once more, it's fine to add some tips or ideas, or add something useful to the products I'm mentioning - but if you want to suggest something completely different, because you think my recommendation suck - please post it in your own blog.

I try to keep this short - But at the same times I'd like to be clear about it. I appriciate comments a lot, and I like when someone can suggest a nice tip or idea or add something useful - But don't see the point in talking about my likes in a negative tone and I worry about recommending anything now for fear of feeling degraded.
I hope people will understand this and take it the right way.
I know that it's meant in a nice way, but it doesn't always come out like this. I feel it's puts me in a bad light and I don't want to seem rude, but I get really hurt when someone talks to me like I'm clueless. That's how I feel.
I hope people understand what I mean.
Thank you for reading.

EDIT:
And after reading the comment Kris left on my previous entry, I have to add something.
We always hear so many scary stories about any kind of product, but really, the Body Shop's products are on the better side of this. They use fair trade and natural ingredients and are against animal testing. Their makeup is mineral and a lot of their products are organic. They were the first makeup business to use fair trade ingredients in their products, so I don't believe that their products are especially bad for your skin.
So please stop saying "Don't use that product - use this instead".

Ps. I feel really sad posting this rigth after my other post, since I spend time writing about some wonderful things that I like. And know I just feel sad ;__; I hope you'll still like to read my recommendations!

It's bathtime! ♥__♥; + update

2010-06-19T12:01:00.005+02:00

For a while I've wanted to do a post about skincare and I've decided to divide it into skincare for your body, and skincare for your face. This post will be about skincare for your body, and later I'll do a post about the facial skincare. Do you want a post about hand- and footcare??

I've also added a short note about hairtreatment in this update

So, let's start out with that!

I've tried several cheap hairtreament products, and they just do nothing for me. My hair is very dry and damaged - it almost feels burned, and very crispy! This is what bleaching does - especially if you combine with bad food!! Don't! =D

This treatment really smoothes it out and adds moisture. When washing my hair, I always use both shampoo and conditioner, otherwise it gets completely dry and starts to fall off *horror* O__O So if you have a problem with dry hair, remember to use conditioner. Shampoo washes away the grease and dries your hair out - conditioner adds moisture again.

Brazil nut moisture mask from the Body Shop.

This has to be left in for at least 15 min. or alternately, overnight.

For my body, I always exfoliate at least once I week - actually, I'm sure I do it at least twice... And nearly everytime I shower, I use some kind of very mild scrub or a sponge.
These are my two favorite combinations of bodycare that I use.

When I feel exotic and in need for dreaming myself to another place, I use these sweet lemon products. However, the scrub is quite harsh since my skin is so sensitive, so I don't use it more than once a week or every other week.

Sweet Lemon body scrub, bodywash and bodylotion

+ sponge from the Body Shop

It's like the Mediterranean Sea in a jar!!

When I don't use the lemon products, I use these two. The smell of the shea butter is almost non-existant, just very mild and pure. The dewberry bodywash is so.. well, berry, it's just delicious!

Shea Body Scrub & Dewberry Bodywash from the Body Shop

I just use any kind of bodylotion, preferably one with shimmer or tanning effect...

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Tonight I had a dream that me and Kris were in Japan again. We were staying with some family she knew, but they were really strict, and old!, and we weren't allowed to do much... However, for some reason, we took a cap through some fields, and the trip was only a 100 yen. Weird.

I don't really remember what happened next, but I felt confused when I woke up. Sorry for the hideousness - this is what taking trains for hours does to you! - btw, Kris is getting her own tag!

You know, you tend to forget about dreams, but I still have one dream that I'll never forget, cause it's too weird. How does your mind come up with this stuff!? Do you have any wicked dreams that you won't forget, cause they're simply too crazy??

(and yes, I really like products from the Body Shop (I get a discount though). They should pay me for all this advertising...)

Tell us what you love....

2010-06-18T10:52:00.001+02:00

I love having long hair - I love sweating - I love designing things - I love baths - I love through-to-the-table-massages - I love taking off in an airplane - I love movies - I love writing - I love funny people - I love doing scary inner work - I love textmessages - I love fashion - I love shoes - I love bags - I love Buddha - I love makeup - I love the internet - I love singing till my throat is sore - I love reading pointless magazines - I love playing music - I love lyrics - I love burning insence - I love dorks - I love banana cream chocolate crepe - I love reading - I love home-altars - I love sleeping - I love Japan - I love karaoke - I love producing things - I love pancakes - I love raising the bar - I love yoga or at least the idea of doing it - I love boys and men who counter the stereotype - I love candles - I love drawing - I love sushi - I love shopping - I love quotes - I love someone who can soften, yet still be in command - I love superheroes & -villains - I love being the center of positive attention - I love playing with words - I love old Asian furniture - I love bamboo

What do you love?
Do you think what we love tells the story of who we are/was/can become?

Hahah :D

2010-06-18T09:01:00.000+02:00

I was reading aloud to Momo from an online newspaper...
Me: "Miley Cyrus gets a new tattoo..."
Momo: "Wait, what, Miley Cyrus gets nude at the Zoo?? - so that's why people thinks she's being slutty..."

The unbelievable shitheadery that we live in...

2010-06-17T17:12:00.001+02:00

Don't consider this a proper post, I just had to rant about this matter.

Ryan Reynolds on "The Nathan's Famous Fourth of July International Hot Dog-Eating Contest" - and eating competitions in general, I'm sure...

"Would it be fair to say competitive eating holds the renown of professional football, or the lore of Major League Baseball? What about other unsung athletic heroes across the globe? 14 year old Mustafat Osmana holds Western Sudan's competitive Not-Eating-A-Thing-a-Thon record, by going 39 straight days without food. Barely edging out defending champion, Ahmed Rashid who went a whopping 38 days before accidentally eating one of the flies living on his eyelid. (Ouch! Better luck next year, Ahmed.)
Young Mustafat, who maintains a strict diet of inner turmoil and bleached hope, looks forward to watching the ESPN-televised event to better understand what gigantically wasteful, fucking super-retards we all are."

What better way to celebrate being at the top of the foodchain than having an eating competition?

What's your thoughts on this?

I wish I could write with such sarcasm...

On makeup and music

2010-06-17T14:52:00.000+02:00

So far, today has been quite, how to say it, shitty... I don't wanna dig into why and how, I just had to mention it. It's all an impact from outer things, not something inside of me. So I'm trying to stay positive and steer clear of any emotional breakdown.

I'm glad you could use my advices and ideas.
And if you want to make your own tips and ideas, I suggest doing a blog, cause I read all you guys' blogs ^^; (And if I don't, please let me know so I can start!)
I feel like I should give my opinion on all the tips I recieved, since if someone read them here, I'd like to have given my input to it too.
I have really dry and sensitive skin too, and the products I use are good for this type of skin. For me, I never use any kind of powdered foundation, because it makes my skin and face look very dry and powdered, like I splashed flour on my face (been there, done that, seen the horror!). The key to using liquid or creamy foundation is finding one that moisturizes and also remember to clean and moisturize your face morning and evening. I'll make a topic later about skincare, as it's something I'm hyping about lately ^^; (Actually, the foundation I use now is the only foundation I have tried that didn't give my flaky, dry areas...)
Anyway, I think trying things out is what is best for everyone. What works for me, or someone else, may not work for you - and the other way around.
And kudos to Kris for mentioning about how to wash brushes. I guess I wasn't that clear on that topic.

Recently I started playing my guitar again. I play really horribly, but I never play when anyone's around, so who cares! The walls are thick and no neighbours can hear me! Luckily... ^^;
I've always been told I have a great singing voice, and I've played in bands and done shows, but the past years I haven't done any of this sort of stuff. And recently, for the first time, I'm seriously doubting if I can even sing remotely well... I shouldn't be affected by one person's opinion or lack thereof, but what if I'm like one of those horrible, horrible singers on American Idol, who have been told they sing well - When they clearly really don't... Aah.....!! I should record something and post it here. Now wouldn't that be embarressing!!

I have a request for you, or more a need of some help - As you may have noticed (maybe not), I have added an "Upcoming topics" section to my blog. There's a few topics in it already, but do you have anything special you'd like me to blog about? I may have already asked this, but I'm asking again.
I'll be sure to post more on makeup, and I got the idea to do a phototour of my apartment. Anything else??

I'll be posting my "what do you love" blog in a few hours....

Makeup + brush recommendations

2010-06-16T12:40:00.002+02:00

I was asked to post more about makeup, and today I'll recommend some brushes and blushes!

The brushes from Body Shop won lots of awards and another plus is that they're sort of cheap - well, as cheap as really good brushes can be.
Brushes are in general crazy-expensive, but Body Shop's are definately on the cheaper side.
I want to recommend their foundation brush - It's flat, and just the right size. It can be used for regular liquid foundation and also for the type of foundation that I use - M.A.C's Mineralize SPF 15 Foundation. I recommend this foundation, it's not suuuper expensive, otherwise I'd recommend L'oreal's True Match foundation. It's actually rather okay, but it's hard for me to find a colour that matches my skin, and I don't want to have to use different colours and blend (I'm lazy). But the coverage is good and it stays on.
As for blushes+brushes I'd really recommend getting a big blush brush. Body Shop has a really big one!
Chanel Powder Blush Joues Contraste, as mentioned earlier, is really nice, but expensive. I'd recommend checking out Rimmel's blushes, for a cheaper alternative! I have one, and it's good (Though the wrong colour on me).
My lovely friend Kris often uses a (really expensive) blush from M.A.C - It's looks SO good on her combined with the Dior Nude foundation that she uses. Like her face was airbrushed on (in a good way!).
Before buying a blush, you should consider both your skintone, but also what kind of makeup you are gonna use with it (on your eyes, lips).
For pastel-coloured eyeshadows and anything with a pearly shine I use a blush with a pink tint. For brown and golden eyechadows I use a blush with a more brown shade or a sunpowder.
If I wear the MYTH lipstick, depending on the eyeshadow, I think both types of blushes can be used. Basically, for lipstick or lipgloss, I think most colour goes with any kind of blush, as long as the eyeshadow matches.
If you tend to use mostly black or gray eyeshadow and liner, I think you can use both a pinkish or brown kind of blush - depending on whether you want a more tanned and sunkissed look or a cuter, less "mature" look.
Remember to clean your bushes weekly if you use them everyday. Just wash them gently in a bit of shampoo and let them dry, lying on a towel or something. I'd also recommend keeping the brushes in some sort of bag, I don't and mine get really dirty anf full of little hairs XD

I hope these recommendations were useful for anyone! ^-^;

Hey, am I the only one who thinks it looks like Scarlett Johansson's boobs shrunk, like, a lot? XD

Well, at least that's one thing I can have and she can't - bigger boobs... :D

Update + movie review

2010-06-15T15:00:00.001+02:00

I wanted to do a different kind of update, but since Stelala commented about The Nines, I figured I'd do the review of it now, rather than tomorrow as I was planning on.

So I'll start out with my 'short' review and thoughts on The Nines.
The movie is divided into 3 parts - Each part revolving around different characters, though played by the same actors. That's a really interesting take on it, and it's amusing to see the actors having to portray such different people. (You should, if not for any other reason, watch it solely for this purpose.)
Part 1 is about Gary, an actor who accidently burns down his house, drinks and drives, uses crack and ultimately is placed under housearrest. This part of the movie is really funny and strange (especially the part where he's high...)
Part 2 is about Gavin who is a homosexual television writer. This part is filmed like a documentary, since he's part of a reality tv-program. This part was even stranger, and had a surprising ending!
Part 3 is about Gabriel who is a videogame designer. His car breaks down in the woods, and he leaves his wife and daughter in the car to go search for a better signal on his cellphone. This part even becomes sort of spooky, I feel. The character Gabriel was very easy to relate too and it was easy to have sympathy with the family.
Only at the very ending we realise what's going on, and why he seems to appear in different "worlds" or universes. It's a challenging kind of movie, but also very interesting and mindboggling. If you like a sort of weird movie that challenges your mind and makes you wonder why, who and when - you should watch this. If you only like movies for pure entertainment and laughs this is probably not for you.
I'd give it 4 stars of 6 - it's not a masterpiece, simply just because it's too challenging and the regular person is probably not ready for something like this. (I'd give it a 5th star just because it's a Ryan Reynolds movie, but that's cheating...) - But I'd still say "watch it and make you own opinion about it". You should watch this when you're in the right mood, and not in a big group of people.
I tried to keep it short - this was the best I could come up with...

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Today I went to do some, what to call it, yoga-chi-power-findingyourcenter-something. The previous times I haven't really gotten from it what I wanted, but today we changed the "layout" of the training, breaking the usual circle, and I felt I had a more personal space and was able to do the exercises without anyone interfering.
Other than this, I didn't have to do much else today.
I have a bunch of movies waiting to be seen. I'm really thrilled that I started watching more movies, both mainstream, unknown, new and old ones.
Last night I saw "Definately, maybe" - A sweet feel-good movie (though it does start some thoughts unlike this type of movie usually does), about a man who's getting a divorce. His daughter urges him to tell the story of his former girlfriend, how he met her mother and so on - something that makes him realise things he didn't have the perspective on earlier, and learning that sometimes it's not too late. All in all an okay movie that you can watch at.. well, anytime, with anyone.

I'm doing a text about what I love - it's probably part of finding out who I am, actually putting into words what I love/like, cause I tend to think about it, and sometimes I can't come up with anything. So recently I've been writing down everytime I think about something that I love!
The post is coming soon, and hopefully it can inspire someone to think about what they love.
I'm also doing a "what are you afraid of" and a "what are you searching for" text, but I don't know if I'm gonna post it here. What do you think?

I have some easy questions for you guys:
Do you think I update too often, or too little?
Do you think I should consequently do 1 update every day?
Or just update anytime I want, (rather than "saving" it up and putting it into 1 big messy post)?
Are there certain topics you think I should post more or less about?
Are 1-3 posts a day about different topics a good idea, or is it better to put different topics into the same post?
Any ideas or something else?

Short update about movies

2010-06-14T10:35:00.001+02:00

I had such a nice time af Kris' place! We watched 6 (SIX!) movies and just hung out. I arrived home late saturday evening, had some dinner and just went to bed early, I was so tired. Yesterday Momo's mom came to visit, so we went out to eat sushi! I couldn't even finish my portion, I guess my appetite have been kinda weird lately?!
At night we watched the movie "The other Boleyn Girl" - Did anyone see it? Lately I've watched more than one of this kind of movie - Also watched The Duchess and Elizabeth recently. Well, I guess I've just been watching a lot of movies lately...

I've also been thinking about if I should go watch the Prince of Persia movie? What do you guys think?

Later today I'll watch The Nines. It sound really interesting and... creepy.

As far as I know, it's been made by an independent filmproducer with practically no advertising budget what so ever.

But I checked out some reviews and it seems like a really underestimated movie...

"....it is a big pleasure to put into motions the mental exercise that really, really stretch you imagination. Does this mean that you should watch it? Hell yeah! You would learn something from this, and once you do feel that the lines are connected and the I's are dotted, then there is a sense of satisfaction that few movies can give..."

Favorites beauty items ♥ makeuprecommendations

2010-06-11T20:27:00.003+02:00

Hi guys!

I'm a Kris' place ^_^ We watched some movies last night, and this afternoon today.
Today we went to Kris' school for a presentation of their recent designs (showpieces). It was cool to see the awesome (and sometimes weird...) designs, and I couldn't help but wish I had the opportunity to design and do something fashion-related in my everyday life...

We also went shopping, and I got the most awesome biiiig flower ring from Pilgrim, and some cute pink peeptoe shoes from H&M - they were cute, and my other shoes were completely soaked, I had to buy something else. My feet was hurting bad from wearing wetwetweeeet shoes!

Anyway, I wanted to do a post about my favorite and most useful beauty items that I use every day ♥
Next will be a post about the skin care (both face and body), hair care and nailcare that I use (with my very best skin tip, which I learned from a Scarlett Johansson interview (gotta love her!))

1.1 Skin - Face
I use M.A.C's Mineralize SPF 15 Foundation. It's light and easy on the skin and it's the first foundation I ever had that doesn't seem to dry out my skin. However I don't think it tend to cover and give me as much of a Hollywoodlook-skin that I'd like - Though I think it's one of the best choices out there for people who tend to have dry or sensitive skin. It comes with a sponge, but using a foundation brush is a much better idea.
I use a concealer from M.A.C too - Studio Finish Concealer - This is the best concealer ever! I think it's really good. Though my face seems to be getting just a tad bit of tan, and the concealer may be just a bit too light on me soon. For this, I use a small eyeshadow brush to apply it, as this seems to work best.
I always finish of my skin with 1 of these things, depending on the look I'm going for, and where I'm going.
Chanel Powder Blush Joues Contraste - I use the colour Narcisse and apply with the brush that comes with it, though I think a bigger and better blush brush would be better! I smile all I can, and add it just on the round applecheeks! ^_^
Chanel Moisturising Bronzing Powder - I don't remember the name of the colour right now though. I use the brush that comes with it, and apply where my cheeks hollow (when I suck them in), on the forehead and a bit on my chin.
Bodyshop Brilliance Powder - Bronze - I apply this as normal bronzing powder, though I use a bit more.

1.2 Skin - Body
I sometimes use a tanningspray, rarely a tanning lotion, and I use the Bodyshop Brilliance Powder in the clevage area and on my collarbones. I think it's important to remember the neck and decolotté area!
I often apply a shimmering bodylotion for a visually slimming and sparkly effect (not Twilight style!)

More on skincare later ^^;

2. Eyes
For eyebrows I use an eyebrowshadow from Japan. Eyebrowshadow is way better than an eyebrowpencil - when you learn to use it!! I apply it with a sharp angled brush.
I often use black eyeshadow as eyeliner (sometimes wet), cause I found a really good on! It's from the cheap brand Manhatten, and I bought it in Germany. It's called Manhatten Multi Effect.
I also often use a brown shimmering eyeshadow from Lancome. It's the best brown eyeshadow I've ever had, and I'm sorry I don't remember the correct name rigth now (don't have it with me!).
I use tons of other eyeshadows of course - Here's 2 I use a lot: Bourjois Paris - 26 feu D'artifice and YSL 5 colour palette (Trésor D'Afrique).
For eyeliner I use M.A.C's technakohl Graphblack and Lancome Laque Liner.
I use Too Faced Lash Injection (volume) atm, though I change between Dior mascaras and sometimes Lancome. Remember to use an eyelashcurler always - otherwise it's kinda pointless ;D
I add highlight in the eyecorner, under the brow and sometimes a bit under the eye. I use Bodyshop Eyeshimmer and apply it with a small brush in circles.

3. Lips
My favorite lipstick is M.A.C's satin MYTH. It's hard to get to look good, and I've seen it looking bad on girls that don't use lipliner. Sometimes it can look okay, but I recommend using M.A.C's subculture lip pencil. It also goes really well with M.A.C's Frankly Fresh lipgloss, or just with a transparent lipgloss.
For lipplumbing effect I use Dior lip wolumizer or Too Faced lip injection (not for the weak-hearted!). I also use lots of other gloss's (!?) when it has to be quick - I can recommend most things that you apply with a small brush or something similar, and I don't recommend Lancome's Juicy Tubes. I think the colour and shine disappears within the first hour. However, M.A.C's Frankly Fresh lipgloss lasts for hours!

Now I'll go clean my makeup brushes. Remember to wash them weekly with a gently shampoo and let them dry (not standing!) ^_^

Going away for a few days..

2010-06-09T16:05:00.001+02:00

Wow, is no one updating?

Tomorrow I'll be leaving town for a few days to visit a friend at the other end of the country.
I think I mentioned it on another post recently actually.
I'll be back sometimes lateish on saturday, so you'll get at least 2 whole days without any updates from me >:D
I can't wait to see her again, to watch movies, party and chill.

The following weekend I made plans with Mia to do video-night-sleepover-thing! We haven't seen eachother much the past months, so I'm really excited to see her more! Hopefully I can visit her soon.
Would you guys suggest any nice movies??

Thanks for the support to my latest entry!
Today I had oatmeal for breakfast, a slice of bread later and some pasta for a late lunch. Doesn't sound very healthy though, but the portions were small, and I didn't feel starved, so I think it's okay
Do any of you have some nice (high protein) recipes you'd like to share?
Some inspiration for omelets, chicken or something like that? I love aything with egg and chicken ♥
Do you have a simple, daily workout routine you'd like to share?
I'll most likely try to work out for around 30 min. before showering - Maybe take a short bikeride later in the evening (depending on the weather - I don't have a stationary bike).

When is the new fragrance from Hugo Boss coming out? I wanna see the billboard ad....

I should better start packing - what to bring?!

I'll probably update again later when I have something clever to say...

Eight easy steps

2010-06-08T19:00:00.002+02:00

I'm so going on a diet, really... -__-; I'm tired and sick of being fat, so... yeah.
I've made this really awesome system - Seriously, it's the BEST idea, I've EVER come up with!! It's gonna be a greatgreatgreaaat weightloss- and workout-help! If only I could sell the concept... Haha ^_~;

I've been finding nice recipes, inspiration, workouts and stuff online. And I happened to come by (lawl, right) Ryan Reynolds' workout and diet routine and how he got his six (wait, EIGHTEEN!!) pack.
And there're some great tips from his and Jessica Biel's personal trainer about building muscle and about how to eat according to that. And ultimately, that inspired me to the system I made.
I have no desire to be skinnyfat and flabby.. I'd rather weigh a few kgs. too much and have muscle and be toned, rather than superskinny.

I talked to my psychiatrist about losing 15-17 kgs. (33-38 lbs), but she says (as a doctor) that it's way too much. She suggested between 7 and up to 10 kgs. (15-22 lbs), after weighing me. So I'll go for 10 kgs. and adding some more muscle - Not that I wanna be some creepy bodybuilderwoman (yuck), but I'd like to be in a good shape ^_^;
I'll try to keep my eating disorder out of this, and do it because I would feel better and be happier, and because I actually need to lose weight. And I want to do it in a healthy way. It's not as easy doing it, as it is, saying that I'll keep the ED out of this - But this is the first step of doing it rigth, rigth?

If only life were as easy as we make it out to be sometimes.

So I'm starting to limit my calorie-intake and monitor it more than usual - It will be around 1200 and 1800.
I want to work out at least 4 times a week for about an hour, and get in a short bikeride everyday (around 20-30 min. total a day) - just to boost my metabolism.
I'll be aware of getting plenty of protein and enough carbs before working out, but not overeating on carbs, and totally staying away from carbs after 7 pm. I'll try to include protein in my breakfast too. It's the most important meal, they say, so adding protein to this meal would do a great difference in how I eat during the rest of the day. We tend to eat breakfast consisting mainly of carbs (cereal/bread) and it just send our bloodsugar on a rollercoaster-ride - I want to stop that from happening.

Wait, isn't this post getting too long?
I'm home alone, so I'm sorta bored (though it's in a nice way) - So I guess that's why I update too much! Sorry!

I read the post through - and it's seems really stupid and silly, I don't know?
Maybe my selfesteem just went down?

What are you most excited about right now?

2010-06-08T18:10:00.002+02:00

Ryan Reynolds! Lol!

Ask me anything!!

New layout!

2010-06-08T10:42:00.000+02:00

So I finally changed the layout...
What do you think?
Today I was supposed to go to the hospital, but I felt so tired and not motivated. I know it's stupid not going, but today was gonna be a quiet day there anyway. And I have so much more to do at home actually.
My stomach hurts a bit and Im so so so tired, in my brain... So I think I'll get more out of just staying home today and relaxing.

I've been thinking about this song often lately. Not because I necessarily relate it to any person I know, but, as it sometimes does, it just pops up for a while as I contemplate about the lyrics...

We share
a culture,
same vernacular,
love of physical humor
and time spent alone

You are a sliver of god on a platter
You make the knees of my bees weak, tremble and buckle

movie-fever ♥

2010-06-06T21:53:00.001+02:00

Yesterday, me and Momo met up with Mia and C. First we rented movies, and then ate at Running Sushi ♥ Yum!
I had a great time, eating out, and I think all of us ate a bit too much >:D
In the morning we have some buns from the bakery and Mia and I had a nice talk about things ^^; ♥ I really missed her... ♥

Here's my movie-"review":

Sherlock Holmes - Actually I found it rather boring?! It was okay, and wellmade, but just not.. idk, and I think it wasn't really as funny as it was meant to be? And I didn't like Jude Law's look in this movie. Robert D. J. looked fine, I guess, but I never had the hotties for him, so idk XD

Rejsen til Saturn - HAHAHAH! Well, I've seen it before... Not much to say, it's crazy shit! Very Danish! I don't think it's available in English though~ ☻

Blade Trinity - lmao! Well, okay, so I wanted that movie... I've seen it before (and it's still as bad as back then...) but since my Ryan Reynolds "crush" has been growing steadily (meeep!) lately, I simply had to watch it again. I'm so lousy, I know... ♫♪♫♪♫♪
We watched the unrated extended version, so lot's of "fuck" and "cock", yayfuckmesideways

1408 - Scary, but I think it was pretty awesome! Scary in a psycological way, but noooowhere as scary as El Orfanato/The Orfhanage/Børnehjemmet/, though I would call it the same genre... (So I won't get nightmares, yay!) John Cusack did really great in this movie, I've also felt so-so about him (and no-no about his look, just so u know!)

X-files - The newest movie.. Actually.. we didn't finish it, cause we had to sleep for a while, haha. But I'm a big fan of X-files, so I look forward to watching the whole movie.
Mulder is baaaack!! Scully is.. also back...
To me, Fox Mulder and Hank Moody (Californication (great show btw)) will always be the same person.... \^^/

Underworld - Rise of the lycans - Well, Momo watched this while I read my book (October Skies, Alex Scarrow). I'm really not into Underworld, I don't know why (other than it's pretty bad... XD) but I just think it's plain boring. Haha ♪♪☺☺
Blup!

Anyway, right now I'm just painting my toenails in a nice nude colour! Wooh!
Tomorrow I'll go to the hospital again, and afterwards my Mom, stepdad and brothers will come visit and have some tea! I haven't seen my mom in months, and I miss her! It's been scary going through all this hospital-shit alone, I have Momo though, but one can easily just need a mom.. ;__;
Me and Momo are planning on watching another movie now, so should just.. hop along..

LETZ GET FIZZIKAL!

Hi guys!

2010-06-04T21:02:00.000+02:00

Thanks for the comments on my last entry! It's really nice to be blogging!
I'll take a minute to answer shortly to the comments, in this post! ^_^

Gitte >> Tak. Bli'r rigtig glad for dine kommentarer. Det er rart at du er så god til at tale åbent om det, også selvom folk sikkert ikke altid er enige. Men man har jo sine grunde til at være og mene som man gør :) Så tak for kommentaren <3

Mia >> Glæder mig også til at se dig! Har ventet rigtig længe, men nogle af dem jeg går sammen med har ventet endnu længere, så er bare glad for at være startet nu...!

Saramari >> I'm really happy u commented! I've been missing reading your blog, and I'll try to catch up soon :D I've also been following your weightloss journay, as much as your Japan-trips, and maybe I'll go read about your weightloss again, to inspire me :)

Stella >> Bliver altid glad for at du gider bruge tid på at kommentere. Og er altid helt enig i det du siger - På det punkt tror jeg vi minder en del om hinanden. Faktisk ville jeg ønske jeg kendte dig mere. Men jeg er så genert omkring folk, og måske derfor har jeg bare aldrig lært dig ordenligt at kende, selvom vi har mødtes flere gange (og holdt nytår sammen!)... Men det er svært hvis man begge tænker på en masse af de samme ting, men jo ikke siger det.
Ved ikke lige hvordan du ser på det, måske sidder jeg bare og udleverer mig selv og er bims :S

So, putting that aside...!
I'm really happy about updating again!
Since my last update, I've been thinking about updating again, haha...! Well...

Yesterday, me and Momo had a big fight, and I just went to bed and fell asleep without sorting it out. We fought again this morning, and it's just so hard having to fight, on top of everything else I have to think about... I hope we can work it out. I feel like, for a while, things where really good, but recently we just fight a lot. Maybe it's due to me being super-emotional and already so stressed due to treatment - or maybe I'm just going through another phase of "what/who the hell do I want" - It's difficult seeing someone get what I can't get. I get easily jealous, when I see my friends wearing all the clothes I can't because I'm too fat, and when I see them eat whatever they want... I get jealous when I see gorgeous celebs that are way prettier than me... I feel frustrated when I want things I can never ever have... And though I know I can't have them, I still look down on what I do have, wishing to replace it with something/someone better....
Maybe I don't feel like this 100% of the time, but it's a thing that takes a lot of my energy these days - and ultimately the reason why I end up fighting with people, I think - cause in the end I'm just disappointed about who they are :(
Yes, I'm so mean and demanding, I know. But that's how I am :( (Maybe a lot of people feel like this, but I'm the only one admitting to it?)
I wish that both I and everyone could live up to the standards I have. I don't know why I set so high standards!? Maybe because I know, I can never have what I really, really, really (think I) want, and if I did get it, then notice that, that thing/person also has flaws - Cause where does that leave me, striving for nothing - if the ultimate perfect also has flaws? Idk, maybe I'm just rambling now...
Do you understand?
(I know everyone has flaws, it's not like I think someone is flawless. Maybe I'm exaggerating, but I hope you get the point...)

Anyway....
Tomorrow, Mia and C is coming over to watch some movies. I look forward to it! Maybe we'll rent some movies or something... Or maybe they can bring some? Can you bring some nice movies, if you read this??? :D (Mia, have u seen the Wolverine movie yet? I'm sure you have though... But I rented it, so I still have it, if you'd wanna watch it...)
Next weekend, I'll go visit Kris. She lives far, far from here, but she's one of my best friends, and I miss her a lot. I really wished she lived closer. Maybe she doesn't understand everything about how I feel and act, but she's always honest, and she's always there no matter what! I'm so grateful to her for that.
We'll go to a party that her school is hosting, and we'll watch movies with hot guys (Or as she said "vi skal bare vold savle over lækre fyre!") Haha...! So I look forward to that weekend :) :)

I was thinking about something -
What kinda celebrity would you like to look like?
Is there a speciel actress/singer/model that you think is really pretty, and you wish you could look/be just like?

Just wondering! Haha! ^^;;

Take care, and have a nice weekend! ^_^

Love <3

Erm, hello~...?

2010-06-02T13:34:00.004+02:00

Hi guys.
Wow, I'm actually updating. If you knew how many times I've been thinking about updating, without (obviously) doing it...
I have had several reasons for not updating. One of them was moving to a new apartment and having no internet for close to a month. That clearly made a huge break in my updating. When I finally got that internet connection up and running, I was just too busy and concerned about "real life" to spend time blogging. I missed blogging a lot though, and I think it's time to start again. I don't even know if I have any readers left... Anyone still reading my blog? Anyone wondered where I've been?
I started a treatment (something I haven't really talked about on this blog, yet) 3 days a week at a hospital. I'll be admitted to this treatment program until November, and (if all goes rigth...) I'll be following a sort of "phase out"-program for up to 1 1/2 years. It's tough, so tough. The days I spend in the hospital are dedicated to that only. I get tired, get headaches, nausea and the likes, though I've been following this program for over 2 weeks, and I feel like the "sideeffects" are wearing a bit off...
Anyway, this was not supposed to be about making "excuses" for not updating - however this stuff is important in my life, so I think it's okay to blog about it.
Furthermore, I feel like this blog is becoming more personal, and something I do for me (though I hope to get a few comments once in a while, cause they really make a huge difference to me...), and for the next while, maybe I won't be focusing as much on gyaru as I usually would - but my life have been filled with more "serious" matter, and I simply haven't had time or true interest in following the gyaru-community.
My illness has been taking more of my time than is has done for years. And I'm really doing some soulsearching - what do I want with my life, who am I, what do I like and what do I need? I have spent most of my life, hiding my true feelings about most things from most people, cause some people forced me to be that way. And it's damn tough, feeling like no one actually knows me, like I don't even know me. And people don't wanna know, they don't wanna know how I feel, how I am, cause it's too much to handle for some/most. I hide grudges and hurt feelings about so much behind a facade. I'm not bulletproof, I'm not immune to pain. Honestly, non of my friends, no one, know how I really feel, cause I can't say. I've tried, and I've been met with a "I can't handle that, we can't be friends until you change"-attitude. And it hurts that the people I thought cared about me could think like that.
I didn't wanna do a whiny post, and I hope you don't read like that, cause it's not really the purpose. I'm just trying to be honest and put the feelings I have into words. For my own sake. Though I wish that certain friends would read this and see that I try to tell them things that I don't know how to say in other ways.
I love my friends, and I know they have a life too, but honestly I feel like lowest priority in someone's life. I'm just sad and tired of feeling like I care more than they do. But maybe I do. But it just still sucks to kinda like someone who doesn't like you back the same way. I think most people can recognize that feeling, whether in love or friendship.
And my family is screwed up in ways I don't tell people. And something I never, ever told anyone about, is still affecting me and twisting my relationship to certain things.
I don't know if anyone really gets what I'm saying here.
If I could just go back and change the past, if I could just have a family to comfort me, I wouldn't have to be here and feel like this. It sucks. It just really sucks. That doesn't mean I'll give up. I'll just have to be more specific in my needs and wants, and I have to think more about me, that about if I'm hurting other people.
This post is getting long... I think, I'll close down on this subject and more on to some other things I wanna talk about. But this is my proper update about what's going on in my life. Isn't that what personal blogging is about, in the end?

Now, for a total change of subject - So the Deadpool movie is coming next year, and the sequal the year after that. Luckily (though he'll be covered in a mask and stuff, booh ^^;;) they cast Ryan Reynolds as Deadpool/Wade (again), so that's awesome. And this time without his mouth sewn together..!
So anyway, the Green Lantern movie is also coming out next year, with the Hal Jordan/Green Lantern character played by.. dundun, Ryan Reynolds. Lol! Am I the only one finding it slightly odd that he's the main lead in 2 superhero/-villain movies in the same year - By the 2 biggest, competing comic-book publishers..?
Justice League-villain, Sapphire/Carol Ferris will also appear in the Green Lantern movie, played by Blake Lively, and I wonder - when they (hopefully) make the Justice League movie - is she going to be Sapphire too(if she's in it..)? I think it's awesome when they keep using the same actors, it just makes it more "realistic" in a way. Though I think Evangeline Lilly would have been a way better cast than Blake Lively... (who I think is kinda too young and too.. dishonest). And I really hope they'll cast Adam Brody as the Flash, as it's been rumoured. Or I'll cry... XD
I'm just ranting now, and I don't really know if/when there'll be news about a Justice League movie, other than rumours. Though Deadpool and Green Lantern are certain. Woohoo!
Actually, I just have to mention something awesome.. In a comic Deadpool actually referred to himself as a cross between a Sharpe and Ryan Reynolds. And as a fan Reynolds had this panel framed on his wall, and said (about X-men Origins movie) "...I was going to do the film, even if I had to kill some studio head’s pets..."
This is also something I found amusing:

Are there any other comic book characters you’d like to play?

Not really. I’ve never been a big fan of comics, other than Deadpool. There are others I admire. The Green Lantern. I will play Wolverine one day!

Someone clearly gets what he wants recently! (Other than Wolverine, though a less hairy Wolverine would look hotter, though not really in thread with who Wolverine is..... :3 Yes, I think Hugh Jackman is very not-hot, brr...)

Is anyone still reading my blog? -__-;

Just a quick one... !

2010-03-25T17:08:00.000+01:00

I'm running late.. But if I should do an update today it all, I thought it had to be now!
I'm going to meet Momo to pick up sushi in a few ^^;

I was looking through a lot of my old pics from Japan, from both 2007, 2008 and 2009.
(Actually I went through all the pictures on my computer, sorting them, and stuff..)
Crazy, but right now, I kinda miss Japan in the summer! Never thought I would feel that way..! But looking at pictures made me remember all the nice things...! Even in the middle of summer, in Denmark, it's still to cold to be outside at night without a longsleeved shirt or something.. But in Japan, it's just fine. Kinda miss that. (Don't miss the bugs though!!)
Anyway, I think going in January is what I'll do.. Aaah, if I could just go this summer!! We'll see about that ;)

Today I didn't do much actually. Pretty fail. But I made an omelet with tuna, egg and tomatos. Never made one with tuna before, but it was really good actually! ^^; So lots of fish today!

Here's so pictures as an excuse for this lame post :D

Floor in a bar in Roppongi

Apartment!

Pikachu poledancing.. kinda..

(Bad cellphone-pic!) Wish I had bought a bananahat!! XD

God speed you, boooooy~

2010-03-24T16:41:00.002+01:00

When Spice Girls debuted in 1996, I was immediately a fan of Victoria Beckham (back then, Addams). Haha. I still respect her, and I think she's awesome! ♥
I like it when she wears something casual like this, and I think short hair suits her better, so I'm glad she gave up on the long hair, long ago. Well, her long hair was nice, but she's a person who can really wear short hair, so I'm glad she does. And I like how she can wear a casual boyish hair like that!
I love the nude shoe trend. I don't think it really became that popular here though :( I'd really like a pair though. It'll probably go out of style, before I get a pair... ^^;

Thanks for the comments to my previous post about Japan. As I was counting on, I'll probably be going in October or November, so thanks to everyone for their inputs. However, I'll still consider going in January since Sara Mari said it wasn't that cold.. I don't expect it to be too cold, I just fear it might ruin the experience some. Idk.. Haha ^^;

However, part of me wants to go in January for the sales (might go there around Dec. 28th or 29th) - I'll be shopping A LOT (clothes, shoes, bags), so is it worth it, going there in January then? Can I save real money, or are we talking pennies here? Ah, I don't know yet anyway. But I'd like to know if it's recommended to go in January for the sales... ^_^/ (and for the fukubukuro.. XD♥)

And I don't really know what to do there on New Years Eve! It's a big thing in DK, biggest party time ever. Everyone (mostly..) gets insanely drunk, smoke cigars, and fire fireworks and party till dawn. Young, adults and oldies alike.. So I fear New Years in Japan in dull ;P

Anyway, onto something else (totally mixed up post - Just don't feel like making lots of seperate posts!)

MY CATS!

Well, I figured I should post a picture of the new cat, since I talked about her arrival and stuff. And a picture of the other cat since I have, well, never posted on here.. (I think o_Ô)
She's she colour of coffee with milk, I think ^^; She's veeeery cute, but she's not sleeping as much as my other cat, so sometimes she's driving me insaaane with her nyan nyaaan~ T_T; (lulz)
My other cat is still my baby, but recently I've noticed how much he's grown and how heavy he is! He's not fat at all, but he's so big!! He weighs over 12 pounds! (5.5 kgs) Haha.. ♥

See how big he is compared to my hand on his head in the second picture? o_Ô (If you can see it... )

Look how huge his tail can be!! (compared to a normal arm...)

Anyway, enough about cats! Moments like Diamonds is doing a giveaway over here to celebrate passing 225+ followers! Wooh! If I ever got that many (hahahahahahaah never) I would do a giveaway too :D I think it's such a nice a great thing to do ^^; ♥

And just to round this crazy-huge post up - this was me yesterday... I don't have PS so you all have to bare with my uglyness (I don't really know where to get PS again since I lost it ;_;) Cellphone + mirror = BAD QUALITY ! ! !

Sorry, I'm fat and my boobs look just m-a-s-s-i-v-e, don't know why, today they looked rather small actually... And my lip look weirdly shaped, but I think it's the gloss and the light. Boohoo..

On a more serious note, just before wrapping this up, I was thinking about the past earlier today.
The past is a wicked thing. I don't think I'll ever learn to accept, or live with, my past, my present or my future. But that's just how I feel.

The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land

A subtle kiss that no one sees;

A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Anyway.. Eh, bye? :)

Ps. Brandon Flowers is awesum! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Going to Japan?

2010-03-23T12:31:00.001+01:00

I'm considering when I could go to Japan again.I've already been there 3 times before, but there's so much I haven't seen or experienced, so I'm not yet full of it. Since my travels, I have been learning a lot more about places I should have gone to, so I want to go back to all the things I regret not seeing or trying.

The first time I was in Japan was for a holiday. I went there with Dina during spring and we went to an amazing hanami in Ueno Koen. We also went to Osaka for a few days and to Akita, since a very close friend was there as an exchange student, and we hadn't seen her since August!! (of course we did lots of other stuff too XD)
It was really an awesome trip, but there were lots of things we didn't have time or knowledge to experience. We were there for a 17 days ♫

The second time I went there on working holiday! I'm sure I experienced things any normal tourist wouldn't see, and I really really had a great time! I went to izakayas and karaokebars with co-workers, company-parties lasting til 6 am, carrides on the Tokyo highway and sleepover at friends. But I also experienced the regular stuff like Tokyo tower, Meiji Shrine and so on. But generally, I didn't feel like a tourist, and some things I just didn't have time or money to do with my tiny salary.

The third time was in October. It was a lastminute decision, due to certain circumstances, I came to money. The trip was only 11 days, but we got to see and experience lots of stuff, but generally it was most of all a huge shopping spree! But it was awesome!! ♥
So now, I'm figuring out when to go again. Spring was awesome to travel in, and I'd like to go around that time again. I've also been there during summer (August was HELL!), and I honestly don't feel like going again at that time. I felt like a stinky, fat pile of poo crammed with millions of people into shops and trains.. October was the most awesome to travel in. It was basically like summer in Denmark, only not so bright, but reaaally cosy and with warm sunshine. So I'd like to go again at that time, or November.
Though I also wanna go in January for the sales. But I honestly don't want to walk around freezing, so maybe October is the best choice for me. ♥♥♥♥
I have the money saved for flights and I only need very few for hotel - So mostly I need pocket-, food- and trainmoney. I think I could save that up for October if I cut down on shopping and buying candy, icecream and dining out so much (sometimes 3 times a week I dine out or have take out!! Not okay!)

What do you recommend?? ^_^;

This time I'll be writing, way ahead, a sort of journal with tips and guides to where I wanna go, so I'm sure to not regret anything ^__^; And I'd like to make a scrabbook too, when returning from the trip.

I'm so hungry D: I don't want lowcalorie day, I want this!!

random talk about celebs

2010-03-22T14:50:00.001+01:00

So Kathrine Heigl dyed her hair brown. I'm not really a fan of that dark hair on her. She should get some highlights of some sort, or should have just gone with a lighter colour. But either way, she looks nice and happy. I'm really tired of people commenting about her soft and flabby arms. Come on, they're not big o.O Her waist is still very small, so whether she gained weight or not, it doesn't really matter when she still looks healthy and good. (Though I agree she would probably benefit from working out, just to get toned a bit. But that's just my opinion. She doesn't need to lose weight.) Her face might be full, but usually anyone with a full face tends to age better...

And Kelly Osbourne lost a lot of weigth and seems to continue to! I really think she's not pretty. But! She's great she could lose so much weight. Personally I think she should stop now, cause her head looks REALLY weird on her body....! Guess she has her mother's jaw >_>; She just needs to work out and get toned, but if her body gets smaller she'll probably look even weirder..! XD (of course the hair makes her head look even bigger..Haha^^;)
Here's a before/after, and then a recent one.

Today is protein day for me. Had an omelet with egg (well, duh), tomatos and some ham. Tonight I'll work out. Tomorrow will be lowcalorie day, if all goes as planned (we'll see). I made a 6 weeks challenge for myself... (did I mention that?)

I need a blog where I can talk more about food(-issues) and weight, exercise and so on. Maybe I'll use this one too for that.

I'll think about it. Don't know how a combined personal-fashion-diet-japan-blog would be.. :/

What do you guys think??

XOXO

ah, if I only I had skills for writing something nice in this field!

2010-03-22T11:58:00.000+01:00

I should do a real update!
However..! This will be quick!
I was at a party saturday night, fashionably (veeery) late (hey, only 3 hours!).. Had good fun and met some new people, "old" people and some that I just rarely see.. Didn't take any pictures. I think I got drunk insanely fast (that's what happens when you don't eat!), so I was just stupid and stuff..
I only slept 4 hours and I had the worst hangover I think I have EVER had...!
Threw in some workout sunday night. Actually helped!

I cut my bangs. Argh! I'll post a picture soon-ish.. Ehm.. But it looks okay..

Omg, this post is so lame, I don't know why I'm even posting.

Anyway, I'm going to diet and work out. I eat too much bad stuff and work out too little. And I'm fat.. fatfatfat..! Wooho! (Btw, weird how I feel like my arms look and feel really awesome.. except for pictures. Then they're just flabby and fat. Unfair..)

Looking even more forward to throwing my housewarming. Wooph! Cocktails! (what a freaky word..)

If you could instantly become fluent in another language, which language would you pick?

2010-03-20T11:14:00.001+01:00

Japanese - would be soooo useful!

Ask me anything!!

AgeHa Top 10 meme

2010-03-19T12:46:00.002+01:00

I wanted to do the AgeHa top 10 meme too, that Mitsu blogged about ^^;
Here's some examples that Mitsu scanned ^O^

So here's my top 10! Everyone please do it too ^o^

1. Pepsi Max/Nex (diet pepsi) - I love diet coke, but pepsi is the best!

2. Facial care - I often use peel-off masks, but everyday I try to use a special cleanser for Scandinavian skin. I use facescrub 3 times a week ^^;

3. Starbucks gives me a feeling of calm and wellbeing, yet something classy and stylish! Woohoo!

4. Roomwear - I spend many days in my pink roomwear from H&M. Soon I need something lighter for summer.

5. Eggs! I love eating eggs. They're filling, high protein and with a special acid that eliminates the dangerous cholesterol ^^; I love eggs with anything!

6. The Wii.. I play Lego Starwars and Lego Batman, and I want the Wii Fit when I get my tax refund <3

7. Eating sushi out! I love dinning out, though I also love making sushi at home. Recently I like sushi with tempura salmon and teriyaki sauce! It's awesomly (is that even a word!) yummy!!

8. New shoes! I love new shoes! I often buy maybe a pair a month. I have roughly around 40 pairs of boots, heels, pumps, sneakers...!! I want the Momoeri roomwear shoes with the little heel... <3

9. Black and/or grey dresses! I love that kind of dress cause it's so easy to keep it very casual, but also very stylish or fun with the right accesories!

10. Having drinks and cocktails... I really love drinking and making really awesome, cute or stylish cocktails! I look forward to my housewarming which will be cocktailparty-themed!

I didn't keep the meme gyaru, but just mentioned the things I like recently (or always!) in a rather random order ^^;

I'd love to read yours too!

A lot of you already know this, but I got a new cat! She came here 2 weeks ago, and I didn't wanna tell cause I was afraid we couldn't keep her. She's sooo sweet and social, but she really has issues with my other cat. At first, of course, I kept them in seperate rooms with the door slightly open so they could just smell eachother and look at eachother. After a few days I put them together. But they fought a lot. Booho :( My other cat lived here first and of course it's his domain, but it seems she wants to take charge, and he's not okay with that.

Well, a while has past, and my "old" cat is pretty much comfortable with the new cat. He wants to talk and play with her, but she doesn't understand his way of playing. So she still seems to want to be the boss, so she hisses at him most times when he gets too close. So I think they need more time. But hopefully it'll work out. I think they just need a lot more time..

Of course they're both neutralized so they are basically genderless XD

Btw, in case anyone wondered, my cats are named Cohen (after the Cohens, or mostly Seth Cohen, from the O.C cause he's the most awesome boy ever!! <3<3) and the new cat is named Sammy (after Sam from Supernatural. Cause Dean is just to weird for a girl, and though I wanted to stick with the cats having surnames, Winchester was just too long, and again really not right for a girl cat..! XD) So at least we stuck to naming them after fictional characters from tv-shows... ^^;

Sorry, long post again! ^^;

Damn..

2010-03-18T11:35:00.001+01:00

I edited this post and instead of what I wrote, I'll post some songs/videos.

This song reminds me of the time when I just got back from Japan in the winter 2008. It makes me feel calm.

I'd never wanna see you unhappy, I thought you'd want the same for me ♫♪♫♪ (you don't have to watch the video... only the song, for me, is interesting..) A Fine Frenzy always makes something cryworthy..

I like this song, it's just a shame that it's overused in proana videos. When what it's about is really sad. (Like Superchick's Courage - it's a song about recovery, and I suspect they're not happy with the usage of it...)

Anyway, I should probably get on with the day. Do something.

formspring.me

2010-03-16T17:31:00.001+01:00

Ask me anything!! http://formspring.me/rosysunglasses

Dentist + talk about hairspray, stuff and formspring...

2010-03-16T12:13:00.004+01:00

I booked an appointment with the dentist. But they didn't have an opening till april 13th! Argh.. Almost a month! And it'll just be a checkup, and if I need something done, I'll have to book one more appointment... I don't wanna wait, I just wanna get my teeth checked and fixed.. ^^;; I'm afraid that I need something done to my wisdometeeth..! T_T;; Boohoo, don't want to + it's so expensive to go to the dentist!!!

I've heard more than one person talk about how they feel like VO5 doesn't work on their hair because of the difference in humidity between DK and JP. But for me it's not like that. It works SO great on my hair. It has awesome hold, and my hair is still light and non-sticky or crispy.
I also use the Keep & Reset when I have my hair just casual, cause it's a bit sticky so even if it's windy, my hair seems to fall back into place. I also use the Keep Style Lock when wearing my hair up. It's SO great for dango hairstyles...

So if anyone has VO5 that they don't use, feel free to throw it my way, I love it! ^__^;;

A friend who was recently in Japan bought something home for me, so I look forward to seeing her, so I can get it.

Though I should totally spend some money buying beauty-stuff online with Dina ^_^;

Yesterday I got a WII!! ^^; It's not true gamer-gear I think, but it's still fun, and different from regular consoles. Now I only got the sports game that comes with it and a Star Wars game that me and Momo bought. So I'm thinking I should get the Wii Fit +. Does anyone have it? What do you think about it?

I was asked how I did the hairstyle I posted about in my previous post, so I'll try to answer. If you want, maybe I can do a walkthrough or something... ☻

But you'll need a big curling iron, and lots of layers in your hair - Then you start with the bottom hair and just randomly curl it a bit - Though, away from your face, up and away...! And when you curl the top part of you hair, also awaaay from your face, seperate the hair into smaller strands and just sorta lay them on top of the rest of the hair and fix with hairspray... And continue like that.. Makes sense? Don't know... :/ Let me know if I should do a clearer explanation with pictures... ♫

Thanks for the last comments ^__^;; ♥

EDIT: I made a formspring, btw.. So ask me any kind of silly or serious question!! ♫ Please XD Cause it's embarresingly empty D: *fail*

Such a bad poster!

2010-03-15T15:17:00.003+01:00

This'll probably be a really long post, since it's a while since I posted. But I'll try to keep it simple!

Saturday I bought new shoes! I'm really happy ^^; They're awesome to wear! I wore them most of yesterday, and my feet didn't even hurt that bad.

I went to some girls' house to watch movies yesterday. Though we only watched one movie, cause we spend too much time talking and laughing about silly stuff! We had so much cake and candy, and my stomach felt sick when I went home. But it was fun!
We watched Coraline. I hadn't seen it before and I was surprised about the story. I didn't really have a clue what it was about, but it turned out quite scary!

Anyway, I said I'd post pictures of what's in my purse! This is what I usually carry with me when going shopping, to a cafe/dinner or at friend's house... If I go to the supermarket, of course I don't bring this ^^;
So, here it is!

1. Passport - Guess it's an old Japan-habit, always having this with me.

2. At least on mirror!

3. Wallet, got it in a shop in 109

4. HAH! Forgot to make one!

5. Perfume, this time Bvlgari...

6. Lense cases

7. Earplugs - I mostly take them along when going on a longer trip..

8. Small calender from Japan

9. Pen

10. Band-aids..!

11. Body Butter <3

12. Tissues, in this really cute tissueholder from Closet Child

13. Toothpick!

14. Lip balm

15. Pills (for headaches ect.)

16. Makeup purse...

17. Mini hairspray

18. Keys!

19. PSP

So since I made this, I decided to also post a picture of what makeup I usually just carry with me. Of course sometimes I carry more (if going to parties or clubs) and often less (if just going shopping), but this amount if normal for me to carry along if I go to a friends house or something similar. I mostly don't use it when I'm out, but I still bring it! >_>;

1. I either use this one or no. 2.

2. They're both designed by Momoeri and I think they're so cute...

3. Brush-set

4. Foundation

5. Eyebrow-shadow. This is SO much better than eyebrow pencils, imo

6. Liquid gold eyeshadow from Chanel. Really nice!

7. Sun powder

8. Eyeliners - Black glitter one, liquid black, and just black

9. Lipstick - Dior and MAC

10. Lip plumber from Dior. I think it works so-so.. :)

11. Eyeshadow. Despite being HK, it's really really good!!

12. Brown-gold-ish eyeshadow. I'm really into brown/gold or pastels these days!

13. Blush

14. Really cute peach eyeshadow!

I have soooo much more makeup than this, maybe someday I should put it all out and take pictures of it >_>;; Haha...

And then, the bags I mostly use, depending on the outfit, and mostly, the outerwear...

This one is good when I carry a lot. Though it's quite heavy! It's from Galets or Obertasche (same same..) in 109..

Liz Lisa

Tralala

Cocolulu

And....

WHY! does blogspot turn some of my pictures like this? Some it turns, some it doesn't, even if they're all turned the same way on the computer and such. It's really weird. Anyone know how I can make it turn them all the same way instead of it changing some!?? I don't know what to do about it.. Of course I should probably just upload to photobucket or something similar, but sometimes I'm just too lazy to do that, when I can put it directly on the blog like this. Just not happy about the weird turning thing. Help, anyone?

I tried to do something with my hair the other day. Sorry, I'm not wearing makeup, and I'm in my nightwear T_T; *fail* My profile is ugly! :( Anyway, it was fun to do. But my lack of quality hairspray (I'm out of VO5!! What to do!) meant that it couldn't last all day. That, along with other circumstances ... ^^;;;;;

Thought it turned out cute, but it would have been better with makeup and proper clothing of course! And some frizz-control in the back XD

Anyway, I think that was it. I had some more news and more pictures, but that'll wait ^^

I think I'll go watch Alice... with Momo and Sabrina on Wednesday! ^_^; I seriously need some more going-out...

I finished season 5 of LOST! Watched it in a row with Momo and Dina. It was too cool, and I look forward to watching the last season. And to everyone who thinks it crazy and that they just make it up along the way. HAH! There's so many eastereggs and giveaways that makes it pretty clear that they knew exactly what would happen from the start. It's so cool...!

And I can't wait to move! Can't wait to throwing the housewarming/late birthday party. Bought tons of stuff in Germany (it's cheap) so there's plenty for the party! ^^; It's gonna be awesome!

Well, sorry for the crazy long post!!

Take care,

XOXO

EDIT: I seriously need to figure something out about this idiotic layout!! I'm so tired of it just slicing of the right side of my pictures...! I have to find/make a layout that supports a regular sized picture!! So for now there's this really lame one with a harbour.. wth..! /rant

weird dream + talk about cat!

2010-03-05T10:36:00.000+01:00

I dreamed I had 3 Sakurina books - Kinda like a pocket calender.. Sort of.. There were lots of different fields to write in, besides just the dates. Like "party" - And then you could write about who you invited, the theme, the food/drinks, location, entertainment, funny anecdotes, and a sort of rating of the party.. Before every chapter in the book (like before the party-chapter) there was an example that Sakurina filled out from her real life - For inspiration. Really strange...! Haha..! :D
I also had a box filled with pocket tissue.. Strange.. Each one was made out of hard cardboard and featured either Momoeri or Sakurina. And I had so many so I figured I would sell some..!
When I woke up I had such an urge for making something like it myself - But I already have something to carry my tissues in, so I don't really need to make one...

Yesterday me and Momo went to an animal's home/shelter/something to look for a cat. We already have a cat and I want to have a playmate for him. He doesn't seem lonely or anything, but it's always better to have two together.
We went there monday, but we didn't find a cat that suited our needs. Though there were so many cute cats that needed new homes, but most had to go to a place with a garden, and we don't have that! There were a few cats meant for apartments, but sadly they were all pairs that couldn't be seperated. And three cats isn't a good number - It would be a shame for my cat to have two new cats that already know eachother coming in to his home.
So we went again yesterday!! There were some more cats, luckily ^__^ There was this big all black male. He was awesome. But so angry to be in a cage, and, I think, really scared about what was going on. There was also a really cute pair, but they were angry at eachother, so most likely they didn't have to be in a pair. So maybe we can get the female! She was SO cute! A creamcoloured 4 year old. Very cute ^^; But I feel bad for seperating her and her son, but if they don't work out together, they have to go to seperate homes, so I know I shouldn't feel bad...! I'll get a call from the animal's home today about the cat. If she made up with the other cat or not - If not, I can come pick her up soon! Yay! She's sooo cute!
I sorta wanted to wait till after moving, but if the rigth cat comes along before moving, of course I have to get her..!

Next time I'll do an update about "what's in your bag and makeup purse...?"

Oh wow..

2010-03-03T12:22:00.000+01:00

Well, since I got so behind with my posting recently, I though I'd try to do just a short update everyday!!

I don't really have any news though, other than I'm sick. Boohoo! It's weird, cause I've been sick like this 3 times in the past 6 months or so. Luckily I'm going to the doctor tomorrow anyway, so I might as well ask about this..! ^^;

I wanted to post more about the new apartment!! I'm SO excited about moving! I mean, woooh, how awesome is that! I know it's not in Copenhagen, but srlsy WHERE could I get an apartment in Copenhagen that we could afford. Booh! Spent so much time looking for apartments in Copenhagen.
Besides, I miss Roskilde, it's a really awesome city.

This is a drawing of it.
The furnitures are SOOOO overdimensioned... There's room for a lot more stuff than the furniture makes it out to be XD Haha

I don't have pictures or anything, but I'll take some as soon as we move!!
Don't know the exact moving date yet, but sometime in the middle of april!
CAN'T WAIT!!

Anyway, I don't feel so well, so maybe I'll play some games. Just have to decide between computer, PS2 or Wii. I suck, I don't have PS3 yet! >_>;

I'm getting behind on tv-shows. I haven't been following Gossip Girl for a while (booh!) and I didn't even start season 5 of Supernatural. I just hate watching it online.

I also didn't start season 5 of Lost, but it may seem like they'll show it on channel 6 again soon. So I'll keep an eye out for it ^^

Take care!

It's been a week!

2010-03-02T12:28:00.001+01:00

I haven't updated for a whole week!
I've been really occupied with lots of stuff...... (>_<);

First of all, I want to say thanks to the people who, quite a while ago, commented on the blog about my friend. Sadly I didn't really follow your advice. I wrote her, trying to figure it out. But it seems she doesn't have a clue what I mean when I try to explain her things. It's too bad, but no matter what I say or do, she doesn't want to solve it. And I don't really understand. The whole conflict was about that she did something that made me really really sad and hurt - And now she says that I did something wrong - But she can't explain to me exactly what I did. She says she doesn't wanna work on being friends. So I guess that's up to her. Hopefully she'll understand the things someday :(
It's a problem because a lot of my friends became friends with her too, after I introduced her. Of course, I don't mind that they stay friends, but hopefully she understands that when cutting me out of her life, some things may go away too. I'm glad that the friends I talked to about this seems to understand this.... ^^;

I've also been busy because of the new apartment. Me and Momo has been packing like crazy, just to get the upper hand of it before we have to do the packing last minute... XD We actually emtied our storage room on the basement, and emptied all +20 boxes, threw out a loooot of stuff, and gave a huuuuge pile of clothes to charity...! So now there're 10 boxes neatly packed with stuff for the new apartment. A whole box with just SHOES! And there's still maybe 20-30 pairs left to pack.. haha!! ^__^

I've also been planning a birthday party! Me, Momo and a friend, K, have our birthdays kinda close, so we decided to have a party together! It will be after we move, so it'll be a housewarming too! I send invitations on Facebook XD We're making a big bar where everyone brings something to add to the bar. And then everyone can just go crazy in awesome pretty cocktails! Wee~~! I look forward to it :D

Also... I'm going to the doctor on Thursday. I'm nervous because I'll talk to the doctor about my heart.
My grandmother had blood-clogs (!?) in her brain. And most likely it could be something due to her heart. My aunt also had them, and now the doctors found out that she has a hole in her heart. And that she will need surgery or medication for the rest of her life. She's just a bit over 40!
The thing is that it's genetic, so I have to get tested too. Hopefully there's nothing wrong, but I'm nervous cause I can only things about the pains I've had in my heart some years ago and being short of breath and stuff like that. It's probably nothing.. But I'm a bit nervous. I really don't expect anything to be wrong though. That would be unfair. People who know me, really know me, knows that I've had enough experiences with sickness already. Right now I'm not working because of being sick. So.. Hopefully, there's nothing wrong
^__^ cross your fingers :)

Anyway, weird and really hurried posting!!
have to eat lunch now!
Take care everyone!

Soon I'll update more about fashion and gyaru! XD

Baiiis~

Wooho!

2010-02-23T12:38:00.000+01:00

Wow, I'm sorry I haven't updated! I've been really busy!
Yesterday was my birthday!
And! I got offered an apartment! Wee! It's really awesome. Momo and me went to check it out yesterday, and it's really cute, with a balcony ^-^/
The bathroom is a really ugly colour, but hopefully we can change that!

I know I promised to post pictures, of both new bags and the ones I took at my parent's place...
But then it was my birthday, and I also was busy with apartment stuff - so hopefully later today or tomorrow!

About my birthday!
I spent most of the day in Roskilde, where the apartment is. Since me and Momo were going there anyway, we decided to go shopping a bit. We also went to a nice cafe, and I got a smoothie <3
Later we ate dinner and went home. It sound a bit dull when I write it like this, but all in all I had a really nice day! ^__^ Got birthdays cards in the mail and phonecalls and texts <3

Take care everyone! ^_^
I'll do a proper update soon!

Also, thanks for the comments to my outfit post!!! ^^;

At my parents place...

2010-02-19T22:15:00.000+01:00

I'm at my parents place with Momo ^__^; Btw, you should check out her blog, famous-raincoat.blogspot.com 8D
I didn't have time to do an update before I left, and then I didn't really have time to update yet while staying here. So I took a few minutes to do a super fast post!
Yesterday we went for a walk in the snow. I took pics, but I'll post them tomorrow :) (forgot the thingey to transfer them to the computer...)
My brother build a cannon out of snow - pretty crazy, but it's kinda cute, haha...

I got a call from a place where I'm looking for an apartment. Sadly I wasn't able to pick up the phone, and when I called them later, the office was closed. So I have to wait till Monday (!!) to find out if they were offering me an apartment! A few days ago I was totally into getting this apartment. The thing is, recently someone who has lots of knowledge about this told me some pretty bad things about the neighbourhood. Some serious stuff that would affect my daily life quite a bit, I'm sure.
Anyway, me and Momo have a few days to discuss this through, cause it's pretty serious...

My friend, C, is taking care of my cat - I'm sure they're both fine, but I miss my cat, haha.. :3

Take care <3

Outfit

2010-02-16T16:18:00.001+01:00

I wanted to do a sorta romantic mixed with a bit of western feeling (Shoulda worn a hat... >_> XD) ...
Anyway, bleeeeh, I don't really know how to take pictures, and I feel un-inspired and not really motivated.. Also, I have this problem with pictures - My hair always looks different in pictures than irl. Why is that? It gets a lot "smaller" and flatter.. Anyone else experience this??
Aaaaanyway, here you go...

Clothes: All Liz Lisa

Boots: Bianco

Silly faces:

I tried to do the bottom-curl and top-fluff, but, well, it doesn't show up in pictures...! It looks just hideous here :( But I think it'll looks cute irl.. So I don't get it...

Also, I'm wearing the new lenses I got a while ago...
My makeup is really toned down - Just foundation, blush, eyeliner, mascara and a little gloss. All I have to do today is to go buy a stamp! Haha! So I don't really feel like putting on lashes and a ton of makeup or accessories...

What do you think?? ^__^;

Super supernatural

2010-02-16T14:24:00.000+01:00

Haha, so I was bored and read about Supernatural on wikipedia. Yeah, I have no life! What to do though...
Anyway, so appareantly the guy who plays Sam was engaged to Sandra McCoy who he met while making "Cry Wolf" - So anyway, they were engaged for 3 years or something, and after they broke up (I think), she actually played a crossroads demon in Supernatural. As far as I remember - He killed her... Haha. Wicked. I might be wrong though >_>;
Anyway, so this January, he announced his engagement with .. I-forgot-her-name who plays the demon Ruby... What's with him banging monsters.. :D

Anyway, I was actually about to do my makeup and head to the mall..

If you wonder why my blog is so weird, I guess it's cause I blog mostly about fashion, gyaru, Japan, tv-shows and celebrities.. o_Ô

Tatata~

pictures

2010-02-15T16:00:00.004+01:00

Found some old photos... I'm really bored D:

This -->

was taken while I lived in Tokyo... Took it with my phone in the kitchen. I don't really know what I think about this haircolour, but my eyebrows look CRAZY in this photo o_Ô I don't think they were really that bad irl.. Haha..

This one (up!) was taken recently. It's so cold in Denmark! Anyway, I recently got this jacket as a gift. It's pretty and I'm really happy about it!

I also bought this top-thingey -->

some time ago. It's really cute with the big bow. I got it at H&M. (Ignore my face in these pictures..! I look lame!)

Seems recently H&M does a lot of stuff with bows. It's confusing sometimes, seeing things become popular here that was popular a while ago in other countries. A lot of what was popular in Japan fall '08 became popular here during this winter. Weird. Like knitted dresses with reindeers and the like, and hoodies with fluffy fur and so on.. Don't think it got very big here though...

<-- This one (haha >_<) was taken sometime in December. I feel like my hair has really grown since this. What do you think?
I don't know what to do with my hair. I have lots of ideas but they all cost money and takes time *lazy bum*

I miss this hair - my old hair.... Boohooooo :'( But I don't think I could afford extensions now anyway.. >_< And it's hard to maintain. The extensions get so crispy and dry, and when I use leave in conditioner, my own hair tends to get really heavy and flat... Besides, I didn't really feel like it did anything good for the extensions... Maybe it's just the brand I was using.. I'm considering just getting a half-cape-wig thing... or just some wigs. Or a new head... o_Ô :D

Also here are some purikura from the fall~~

These are taken with Aya, Mao and Momo. Hope they don't mind me posting them here..... *eeks* But they look cute!! <3

I miss Japan a lot, all the time. There's just a different vibe there.. it's not just the shopping and the gorgeous people I miss... I just miss the everyday life. I felt a lot more home and a lot more like I fit in, though I obviously should fit in more here than in Japan.. I don't know. Had some nice friends and that made things a lot easier I guess. I often regret fucking it up like I (feel like I..) did.. But what's done is done, and hopefully, someday, I'd be able to get another shot at it!! ^__^ We'll see!! Sadly I don't have any photos of the extensions I got in Japan... Though let me know if you wanna see some other random pictures from my trips to Japan and from when I lived there ^_^;;

On another note - I look forward to this week.. Wednesday I'm going to lunch with Momo's mom and brother, and in the evening C and M will come over. I think we'll just watch Supernatural or some dvds.. On Thursday I'm going to my parents place. My birthday is only one week from now. On the 22nd. So I'll celebrate with my family this weekend, since I won't be able to see them on the 22nd. Don't know what I'll do for my birthday yet? Any ideas?
Also wanna start planning for a birthday party for friends. I'll think it'll be sometime in mid-march. But don't know who to invite, cause I don't have a lot of space.. >_< it sucks...!

ps. I HATE editing entries with blogspot... It's impossible to make the stuff appear where I put it.. Anyway, I'm not very impressed by blogspot XD but I'll still use it...

new bags ^_^;

2010-02-15T12:09:00.000+01:00

It's noon and I'm still just in my nightwear.. Ah, I don't wanna get dresses... Don't you have days like that? Where you just don't wanna waste time getting all dressed up, especially if you're not even going to leave the house...? I'm not, except for in 5 minutes, I have to go laundry in the basement. I don't want to, it's so cold... Haha, I sound really whiny...

If I can get myself together, I think I'll take a shower, do my hair and get dressed and take some pictures. I'm way too lazy when it comes to taking photos. I don't know, I just never feel I look pretty enough... ;__; Boohoo...

Anyway, I bought 2 new bags ^__^ YAY! I really need new bags. My lovely white purse-thingey from Shibuya that I always use is broken and has been for months, so I definately need a new one!!
It's Tralala and Liz Lisa <3 I just love Liz Lisa.

I got a spedometer from a magazine. I don't think it's very accurate or good. But I thought I'd try to wear it sometime and see how little I walk >__> They say you should walk 10.000 a day, maybe I walk.. 1000.. *fail*
I remember wearing one on a random day in Tokyo, and by the afternoon is had already passed 14.000... And then something happened and it re-started, so I didn't even get to count how much I would walk in a whole day. It's crazy though...

Happy Valentines~

2010-02-14T21:50:00.001+01:00

I didn't really have time to update yesterday, and today will just be a short update, without pictures, though I had originally planned to do a little photoshoot this weekend....

Thanks for the comments to my last entry... I really appriciate it a lot!
Since I don't quite understand the comment system here (like, I can't reply to your comments) for now I'll just be answering comments in my entries ^^;
To Amy >> They really do have some nice stuff in New Yorker! And recently they seem to have a lot of cute, "childish" stuff ^^ Sadly their sizing is really weird, so even though I'm not huuuge, all their pants just fit me really weird >_>;;
I don't think it's possible for me to talk to my friend though... ._.

Hime Helene >> Thanks! I love decorating stuff, and I always look for anything that's possible to decorate. You should come decorate stuff with me and momo sometime XD
Exactly, I tried so much with my friend, so I think it's too late....

Liv >> I was afraid no one would read it, cause it turned out soooooo long *fail* XD
As I said to the others, there's not really a chance with her anymore. I was pleased to recieve some comments about it, cause it helped me see that I was not totally off in how I felt about it... ^^ Thanks <3

Gitte >> Actually, I might start doing custom rings and phone-danglers and so on and sell them ^^;;

So thanks again for the comments! I also called another friend (Let's call her D) and learned quite some scary things about our friend (the one I've been talking about - let's call her B) - So I'm even more contempt to just let it be what it is and call it over. I don't wanna waste time going through anything like this again, and apparently I'm not the only one who've had run-ins with her. I feel sad for her, she should be feeling awful by now, cause it seems like she's losing a lot of friends. But she doesn't seem to wanna talk about it, so I can't really do anything. For my own sake, I'll stop worrying about it....

FINISHED SEASON 4 OF SUPERNATURAL!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*chokes*

picture-post and update about moving...

2010-02-12T16:00:00.004+01:00

Didn't have time to update yesterday after all ...

I took a few photos of some of the stuff I got ^^;

isnt is cute XD? I don't know if it's really my style, but I think it's cute. It's from New Yorker. It's freaky how it got muffins on top of it's eyes o_Ô
I think it'll be a nice match with short frilly skirts in white, off-white, beige, babypink or maybe even floral...

Or like the ones below. They're both from H&M..

Anyway, I also got a Liz Lisa skirt and a Liz Lisa long shirt. Kinda like a one-piece.. If you're 145 cm short... >_> Anyway, I don't plan to use it that way XD

I bought a body butter in Body Shop. It smells SO good *swoons*

Also bought some more stuff, and boots, but didn't really care to post pictures..

I made some deco stuff. The big one is a lid to a kinda jar where I keep the finished fimo st00ff...

Tried making a crepe XD Haha, lame, but maybe it turned out okay. Also made a ring (not pictured) with fake whipped cream. Have like.. 4... already, in different shapes/colours/sizes, but you can never have too many, rigth! =D

Maybe I'll make some more today. These things were mostly a test of some kind...

I'm going to the mall in half an hour to pick up the mirror I mentioned in a previous post. I got it put aside yesterday so I could pick it up today ^^; Can't wait. It's really awesome and it was so cheap. And I really needed a huge mirror. The one I have now is too small, I can't see my feet >_<;
I don't have plans tonight which is really nice. So I'll just chill <3 Tomorrow or Sunday me and Momo planned to take some pictures. My new lenses from Candy magic arrived yesterday, so it'll be fun to try them on for real.

There're a few more serious things I kinda wanted to write about. But it's just difficult and I'm not sure where to start. Anyway, as some of you know, I'll be moving. The thing just is, I won't. Me, Momo and a friend had decided to find an apartment together, so we had been looking for quite a while and looked at a few apartments. Anyway, finally we found this really cool one that we would be able to afford all 3 of us. We went and picked up the contract and on, and the day before we were supposed to go to the company's office she send me a text... About, just so we would know, maybe she would move to Jylland (the other end of the country) after the summervacation (late august). But that she still wanted to move. And I was just speechless. We were going to move the in april. And then we would have to move out again in august?! Wth? Just because she would maybe move away. I don't know why she wanted to find and apartment with us, when she knew this from the beginning.
She said that she didn't know until august if she was gonna move. There was NO way me and Momo could afford to live there alone, so if she suddenly had to move we would have to give up to apartment. There's a 3 months notice, and no way she felt like she should pay during that time too. Though it's only fair. If we quit the apartment, of course we would all have to pay till we could get rid of it... It's an apartment we would get together, so the 3 months notice that the company has would of course apply to all 3 of us.
And I'm just SO sad and disappointed. Me and Momo were both really looking forward to moving there, and suddenly she says something like this. I feel so used and I don't understand why she would even drag us around looking for apartments, getting us happy and excited when she knew that there was no way we could ever move in together - What if we had signed the lease and suddenly she had sprung that "btw, I might be moving, so we have to quit the apartment now." We would only had gotten to live there for about 1 month before we had to quit it. It's so lame. And there's a deposit, and we we had to buy fridge and a stove. All that money would just be wasted!!
So I'm glad she at least told us before we signed anything. I just can't believed she kept acting like it wasn't a problem at all that she might be moving. She didn't understand why we got so sad, cause we could just still move she said - And then what? In August, me and Momo would be homeless AND be completely broke!! I tried reasoning with her and explaining how I felt, but she just didn't get it. I don't think she cares. The last text I send her, she simply didn't reply to. And I haven't talked to her since. She's was supposed to be one of my best friends, but when she doesn't give a shit about how much she hurt me, or contact me in some way, I just have to assume that she's not interested in my friendship. It sucks cause we have a lot of the same friends, but it's her choice. I feel like the ball is in her field and if the wanted she could just contact me. There's just been so many problems with her lately. I've been hurt and badly treated too many times, so I don't know if there's any way saving this or resolving it.
I'm not like this usually. I would contact someone if this happened, but we've been through it so many times. And I'm sad, hurt and disappointed, so I'm tired of always being the understanding one, and always taking initiative to resolving the problems when she's clearly not interested.
Sorry, it was immensly long! >_>; I just needed to explain why we won't be moving there after all.
Me and Momo are of course still looking for a bigger apartment, cause this one is so small... ^^
But it's okay.
What do you think I should do about my friend?? (I don't know if "try talking to her" will help me, because I'm the one who's hurt, and I've tried so many times, all ending up like this once more...)
But I could really use some input..... :'(

Anyway, I don't really want all this bringing me down, there's too much I'm concerned about already...
And it's only little over a week till my birthday so I have to start planning the party for family and one for friends... ^^;
If you wanna come, let me know ;D

just a quick one..

2010-02-11T12:26:00.001+01:00

I update way too much maybe.. It's been a while since I had a blog, so I missed updating...!
I'll do a prober update tonight with pics and stuff! ^__^

But I just got a new Liz Lisa skirt and a long shirt-something. It's so cute! I already have lots of coordinations planned for it. They go really well with all the stuff I bought yesterday, and I'll be able to wear all kinds of shoes/boots to the stuff too. Like highheeled black pumps or the gray leather boots I got yesterday, or just Ugg-ish boots or the lovely megahigh suede strap-sandal-pumps I have lying around in my closet... Which I can never use cause they're too high and there's still snow everywhere.. Who cares, they look awesome!

I already took pictures of the clothes, but I'll post them tonight as I should kinda get going by now..
I'll go to the mall, cause they had this awesome biiiiig mirror with a silverframe on sale, so I hope it's still there. I'll ask them to keep it for me till tomorrow, cause I probably can't carry it home alone - So Momo will have to help me tomorrow ^^;

Can't wait for the weekend! Just wanna chill and do some deco stuff I have been planning for a while...

This turned kinda long for just a quick one >_>;

Shopping!!

2010-02-10T19:52:00.001+01:00

Lame-ass title...!
Anyway, went shopping today. Bought new boots at Bianco <3 They were on sale + I had a gift certificate...
Also bought a t-shirt and a pullover in Newyorker. The pullover is really cute, and I think it'll match nicely with some Liz Lisa stuff ^__^
Also bought this awesome long hoodie in Gina Tricot and a t-shirt and a skirt <3
All in all, pretty nice. I'll post some pics tomorrow!
After all the shopping, Momo and I ate out ^__^

Yesterday we continued watching Supernatural.. Some of the most wicked episodes so far, maybe not counting the first one with the trickster and the slowdancing aliens... Anyway, Dean is so funny =D (you should watch this...)

The next episode I've already seen on TV and it's pretty yucky... But looking forward to watching it anyway...

I've also been watching some of the episode of CSI about the miniature murders.. It's so awesome, I'd really like to watch all the episodes, since I've only seen a few of the episodes when I randomly turned on the tv.
Does anyone know which season these episodes are from? I'd really like to buy that season, or if they released dvd with those episodes, like with Grave Danger...

So now we're (me and Momo) just watching TV =D
Yesterday we bought icecream, but we haven't eaten it yet, so soon I might eat a scoop.. or two.. <3

Hope everyone had a nice day, so far ^__^ I'll post some pics tomorrow...!

deco-pocky

2010-02-09T16:39:00.001+01:00

Well, I know I keep updating...

But what's the deal with deco-pocky? I just think it's a bit pointless? You can't eat it, and it's not gonna last anyway...

When I get the time, money and will to do it, I'll change my hair. I want extensions again, but maybe I'll keep it shorter for a while. But I think I'll dye it a more ash-blonde with dark brown and white streaks. Thought it would be interesting...

Wedding~

2010-02-09T14:16:00.001+01:00

Just read about this wedding~
lesbian-gamer-wedding
It's so amazing, now I wanna be married.... <3

Also, I think I'll play games now..
I decided to wait till tomorrow with buying the fake whipped cream stuff, since Momo has a day off tomorrow, so we could go together. Would be fun!
Maybe we'll go to the pool or gym too~

about something-something... and EDs

2010-02-09T12:02:00.001+01:00

It's kinda weird updating when I don't know if anyone's reading... Haha...

Anyway, today will be the quest to hunt down some special stuff I need for fake whipped cream ^^;
I'd really like to get on with some stuff I'm working on (like the glass where I keep finished fimo stuff in - I'm decorating the lid).

I'm also waiting for some Candy Magic lenses (gray). Candy Magic is huge with agejo, but the past few years it's been growning in "normal" gyaru culture too I guess. I used to use the Asian Alluring Eyes lenses for years since it was really the only thing on the market with strenght in it back then - And since my eyesight is really bad, I need some lenses that'll make me able to actually see... XD
But since Candy Magic got available with strenght to us regular humans I decided to try them out! Yay! Hope they'll arrive soon. Currently they're held by costums...
I'm also waiting for some Liz Lisa stuff. Whoohoo!

I also have a more serious matter that I simply have to post, considering...
I battled eating disorders for 10 years and counting with the occasinal gap of eating/weighing in like a normal/sane person. And I'm not over it, and I just can't read the blogs that are all about being skinny and how good it is, or about how fat someone think they are. I'd like to be able to read people's blogs, but I shouldn't, and I won't allow myself to follow someone who's not in their rigth mind about what is healthy. One thing is to be truly eating disordered, another thing is to just cherish the bones poping out....
I'm thinking about food and weight everyday, and honestly I wish I could just be normal, slim and healthy weight, eat normal and be happy like that, cause I have problems enough as it is, without the ED.
Some people are truly ill, and some people just think it's "nice" or healthy or whatever they think, to be skinny.

It's unhealthy to be underweight! I'm tired of people thinking they'll be healthy if they're underweight. Some of them are "skinnyfat" and just say that they'll eat healthy and start working out - But that's not very healthy for their already skinny body. Healthy would be gaining a few.
Being 5 kgs. underweight is more dangerous and unhealthy than being 5 kgs overweight. Those 5 kgs of overweight, your body can actually use for something good later on if you get sick or something similar.
Being underweight will lead to hairloss, skindamage (bad skin like acne, blemishing and so on), organfailure or ultimately heart attack. Is it really worth it?
When I was skinny, sure some clothes may have looked "cool" on me, but no one saw that over the thin hair and the gray-yellowish skin. My skin was so dry and cracking in my face. It was so obvious how malnourished I was, just looking at the brown and dark circles round my eyes.
A BMI of 22-23 is the healthy BMI. So to all those skinnies who wants to be healthy. Gain weight, eat healthy and workout - and strive for that healthy BMI. You'll be healthy and you'll look good. Of course some may look better with a BMI of 24 or 25 and some may look better with a BMI of 20 (but don't go lower than that.)
I just don't need to read about it. I wanted this journal to be about something else, and I'd take my ED somewhere else. But none the less, this had to be said.

1. post!

2010-02-08T17:08:00.003+01:00

Okay, so I'm new to blogspot. Been using LJ for years, but wanted to try something new.
I'm not too sure what I really think about this kind of blog - I miss the tags on LJ! Not sure how this blog works... Haha...
Well, we'll see if I can keep this one going or if I end up going back to LJ...
Also, I don't know if I'll keep this blog in English or use Danish?!

Yesterday I did another batch of fimo stuff with . Made tons of biscuits and chocolates. I wanna make jewellery out of some, like biscuitsrings, necklaces and so on. But mostly, I'll use it to decorate nails.
These are the nails I'm working on these days.... Just a quick phone-shot..

Yesterday, since it was sunday and I didn't have plans, me and Momo finished season 3 of Supernatural and started season 4. Wha! Sam is so... angry, and I just want them to go back to their normal silly selves...!
Also watched some CSI Miami for kicks and went to the mall. Bought a pink skirt on half price. It's cute!
Maybe I'll post a picture tomorrow ^_^;

Edit: Read through old posts at my old old LJ back when I was living in Japan. Got a total knot in my stomach. Missing Japan and realizing how fucked up a lot of stuff were... >_<;